Pale

Monday, January 12, 2009 9:49 PM

Sad Depressed

Summary of the day:

Okay, so I didn't go to school today becaue my eye infection deteriorated.
Woke up again around 1100Hrs, showered and Dad accompanied me to go to the clinic.
Was a fast proccess, in less than 2 minutes I was out of the room.
Quite fast, all the better.
Doctor says I got an eye infection but I really don't know how I get it.
I don't wish to know, but if the condition worsen after the doctor prescribed some medications then I had to go to the hospital for operation.
I asked the doctor to give me 2 days of MC.
It'll be good that way because I'm not in the mood to see everyone in school anyway.
Life kinda sucks these days.
Sigh, what luck I have.
Went home, heated up the food, had my meal and took my medication.
After which, I spent the day by watching TV.
& Fell asleep for nearly two solid hours because of the pill I took.

Somehow the whole family is addicted to watching Chinese Dramas. Both 1900Hrs & 2100Hrs =.=

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Emotions doesn't seem to set right these days.
It's been close to a week I've been feeling low, both physically and emotionally.
However, when I'm in school I tried my best focusing on my studies rather than anything else.
I hope I'm strong enough to withstand this relationship matters throughout the year.
& When I'm down, I know I can fall back down on my own class who never fails to make me laugh at least a minute everyday.
Despite feeling down, I know I somehow laughed more than that but that's just the way it is to kiss away the pain.
& When I reached home, things will get moody and boring.
Thus reaching home late nowadays :/
Hoped that I won't resort to doing stupid stuff which can vast my future.
What I'm currently feeling is just wanting to cry my hearts out and not care about the world anymore.
I guess I've been priortising else's feelings rather than mine.
This time I had to be selfish in my own way, I'm sorry but the world itself isn't kind.
I just want to stay strong, but why do I have this obnoxious attitude towards the people I love.
It seems that being stubborn is the current roadblock that stops my plan from going the way I want.
Sigh, can't I just feel happy naturally?
I mean all that shit of laughters and jokes I made in school were actually just for me to put up on a good show to recieve a standing ovation among the sea of people.

Love,ABJ
He says each day's a gift & not a given right-