I think my blog is dying.

I damaged the keyboard plug out of anger. Now I think I deserved it -.- Dad doesn't know about it so I guess I'll just keep mum to myself for the time being. Who knows I might get a new laptop since I'm not installing a television in my room. ^^. Nothing much took place this week but I had fun on certain days either with Dear or The Usuals.

Yesterday was BBQ Outing with Dear & friends. Was quite alright I guess. It wasn't that bad as expected. Afterall, I got some company & I had fun watching the boys play at the sea. It was pretty tempting for me to dip myself in the sea water but coming to think of it, it'll be so troublesome for me to shower later so I just sat on the damp sand & enjoy playing with the sand :D. As expected, or rather predicted, it rained. Hahahaha. So it's pointless having Dear to close my mouth the other day when I said the taboo word. Luckily it rained for about an hour so we continued to go ahead with what was planned.

Went home quite early at about half past eight with Dear, Fir, & Mani.

& I'm done I guess. Will blog soon. ASPIOW!

Summary of the day? Well, I kept on snoozing on my alarm clock again when I intended to wake up at eight in the morning. So in the end, I woke up at around half past ten. Watched TV, did the laundry, cleaned the kitchen & fried some nuggets as part of breakfast. There's some good local TV shows today so I watched them & left for SM's crib at around three in the afternoon. Bought laksa for the both of us & ate over at his crib while watching TV. So we're busy commenting while watching American Idol & so on. At around six in the late evening, I left for home. & Due to my carelessness, I left my spectacles on the table. SM's Dad was quite suspcious about it & I put SM into hot soup. Thousand apologies, blame it on my carelessness :/

The Usuals are going to pool tomorrow except for Ruzanna & Firdaus since they got their own responsibility to respond to accordingly. I will be hanging out with Mainnah at her crib first before meeting the rest at Woodlands Point Centre. Then we'll go have dinner! I'm so looking forward to it but it's pretty sad Sensational 5 is not complete.

I'm currently feeling nauseous I don't know why. No, I am not pregnant you toots. Haha. Maybe I don't have a proper meal for quite some time. I can't even bend over. Felt like falling of the chair & faint when I plugged in my USB wire earlier. Tsk. I'm waiting for Mum to come back from work since she's so scared to open the door & had to compromise my sleep. Dad's working & Bro's out for camp till even of HRH. PSP is mine, so will the LG Joy ;)

Will stop here, shall update tomorrow if I'm not tired. Working on Thursday. Half excited, half lazy & in the quit mode.




Love, ABJ
It's cold & loveless, I won't let you be denied.

Labels: Hooked On Muse

Yeah, I'm feeling disturbed at the moment.

One time, I feel you're my friend. The other, a friend who dissed me down & out.

I'm biting my lips refraining myself from crying.

I yearn the good times with people like you & you.

I felt that there's so much for me to know but I was kept in the dark.

I felt disappointed with the person whom I put so much hopes & commit love with.

Eight million stories out there, & they're naked. Yet I can't trust that you actually believed it.

Labels: Disturbia

Hello Earthlings.

I only have to work for one day throughout this week because Janice cannot slot me in for the current schedule. It's pretty sad since my one month's pay would not be as much as expected. Sigh. Oh well, looking forward to work this Thursday for full 8 Hours. I'll be sure to get geared up, aye!

Ok, back to what I am suppose to post about. I woke up at eight in the morning for no ultimate reason so I watched TV until eleven & got myself ready to meet Ruzanna at Orchard after her interview. Guess that babe of mine got her job already! Feel so happy for her & her pay's quite good for a first time part-time worker! Gee, I'm envious! So went out half an hour before noon. Ruzanna & I wandered around Ion Orchard aimlessly. Feeling rather famished, we decided to settle down outside Taka & bought OCK. Oh yeah, while wandering around saw Ah Sim & Arwis working so we just dropped by to say hello then we made our move. Ruzanna had to meet up with her parents so I ended up going to City Hall alone. Since it was raining, I made my way to Esplanade & sat at the library reading magazines while texting Muhsin Dear.

Muhsin Dear & Essham was some sort of lost as they couldn't find their way to Robinsons at RafflesCity. Little did I know they were some place elsewhere so I waited to them at City Hall MRT Station & led the way to Robinsons then I seperated for a while to look at some Timberland shoes. They're pretty adorable but costed a bomb. Maybe I'll only buy a pair if Dad's buying another collection of Timberland. Was told that Muhsin Dear & Essham was lost again since they cannot find the HR Department. So thanks to me I had to ask some salesperson where's the place while Muhsin Dear ran away & went to the toilet! -.- The 3 of us went in & they were many students waiting for the walk-in interview. The queue was undescribable so the boys decided to pass. Essham was blaming Muhsin Dear for bringing them to the wrong place & wasting his time. HAHA. Muhsin Dear has been craving for Mc Spicy since I don't know when so we headed to Mc Donald's & I watched both of them eat plus shaking their fries, planning to do something stupid with it -.- Afterwhich, we trained back home since their hopes were a little dashed with the weather so unfavourable. It was chilly & I wanted to pee which I eventually did at Marsiling -.-

Muhsin Dear sent me home at the end of the day. Thank you, thank you ^^





Love, ABJ
My life's slowly picking up the pieces, I feel so.

I don't know what wrong have I done to feel upset or something.

Mum always picks a bone to fight with whenever Dad's not around. She always supports Brother which I see nothing in him but dumbness all the time.  Brother's suppose to go down & I don't know that I was asked to accompany him because no one in the fucking house told me. So I continued Facebook after I finished my shower & only to get screamed at by Mum telling me off that I'm a useless sister who doesn't want to accompany her Brother downstairs because he doesn't even know how to punch a card to withdraw money. So all along whenever he went downstairs with me to withdraw cash, what has he been doing when he's suppose to observe how I withdraw the money? On top of that, he's buying his camping stuff & I should accompany him? For what? Because he's stupid enough not knowing how to find his stuff in a supermarket? & That he doesn't even know how to use NETS to pay for it? It's a huge fucking dumb excuse I've ever heard. To top it all off, I got the blame & was hounded a useless daughter & a sister. Then Mum added in she's lazy to entertain a girl like me with such bad attitude. & The bad attitude that I'm carrying must've been from hers. She doesn't know that, does she?

Well I hope my family reads this fucking post.

As you know I'm working, the only person who's at home the whole day would be Brother. Each time I go home, I expect the laundry to be done even if the clothes are not folded. But I was proved wrong. The cups & other bowls used were not even washed & it stayed there for a few days in the sink. Or for let's say I need to rush for work so I left my cup on the table, it'll still be there three days later. No one in the house bothered to wash it. The laundry? Sometimes I can only afford to dump all the soiled clothings in the washing machine & switch it on, expecting Brother to hang them up once they're washed. But no, again I was proved wrong. It's either someone else in the family or I had to do it after a tiring day at work. I don't even have time to watch TV when I reached home let alone do those chores. But still, I'd try my best to be as dutiful as I can to clear the dirty chores & go to bed despite I'm suppose to be bed one-two hours ago.

My efforts weren't paid off. Yet alone be seen.

In the end, I had to thrash my feelings out & vent it on Muhsin which I felt bad because I know he's already upset with certain issues of his love life. I'm speechless. Sometimes I feel ashamed of particular things which I know I shouldn't share. Oh well, I think it's proven that life's unfair.

I'm starting work on Monday after a week of leave. I'm missing work though. Hopefully I can work up to 8 Hours as per normal & that my leg doesn't give me anymore problems. I've suffered this long enough & when I get older, I know the pain will be more excruciating.

That's all folks. I'll see ya when I wanna be ya.




Love, ABJ
Maybe it's not my weekend, but this could be my year.

Ok, so what's up with me for not blogging for a week already?

Basically, I've got nothing much to update about & feeling lazy to switch on the computer. I can't work so Janice gave me off till next week for my knee injury to recover & encouraged me to only worked 5 Hours instead of normal working time of 8 Hours which is terribly upsetting because I want money. Tsk. In a week, I managed to collect around three hundred bucks, rounded off to the nearest hundred. It's pretty worthwhile & I can feel the hard-earn sense come rolling in.

Last Friday, I finally got myself a new phone thanks to Dad. It was inpromptu! Dad & I were strolling at Causeway Point to check out iPhone for Dad at the Singtel shop then we dropped by Starhub & I notified Dad that there's this Student Plan promotion. It was the last day of the promotion so without hesitation, we queued. I changed Powerplay II to Student plan. Was suppose to pay a penalty fee of $100 because we wanted a re-contract before my plan expired but luckily, Dad was a HubClub member so we don't have to pay for it at all. Bought another student line for Brother under my name, so I chose BlackBerry Storm 5200 & LG Joy for Brother. That was all. I'm happy but not too excited :D

 Oh well, I seriously got nothing much to blog about. Not in a good mood now & I feel like rebelling with some people although they mean well. Pft. In any case, I still think some people deserve it since they've been provoking me since the start of the conversation. To top it all off, I hate repeating the words I just said. If you think you've been asking me the same question over & over again, then please read the previous message again if you don't understand. Only ask me if you're really unsure. This way, you'll not get me acting like a moodless fuck & showing you attitude.

So I'll seeya when I wanna be ya.




Love, ABJ
Stop pissing me off, MUHSIN B RAZALI -.-

Labels: Hot Mess

I have been working overtime since the first day I started work. But I had fun, though.

13 November 2009.

I was assigned at the Main Restaurant with Rave, the man who cursed alot & the grumpy lady in mid-30's named Jeannie for both during Breakfast & Lunch. As usual, I had to clean the plates, refill water for the guests & make either tea or coffee for them. This is so far the only place I've been assigned to during lunch for three fucking consecutive days. Main Restaurant commits the most number of people in Aquamarine so during lunch, the place was packed & greedy people tend to eat alot, wasting plates & worst of all the food -.- To top it all off, our hands stink like crazy when we threw the food into the bin, mixed with soups & other kinds of food. My mood was totally spoilt even though Rave used some fucked up words against me. All I did was just to laugh at it & then I moved on. Amir & Rave argued about the same thing I suppose. Pft. Jeannie & her grumpy attitude got me all immuned to it & I ended up doing things I can and approaching other colleagues if I needed help. The more someone pressures me, I won't be able to do it. So yeah. I was suppose to finish at 3 in the afternoon but since these people who went for Lunch doesn't know how to pack up their ass & leave made us left work for home by two hours late since we need to clean & prepare the table for Dinner. So everyone was cursing under their breath whenever they walked past the customers, which I admit it includes me. -.-

14 November 2009.

I think today was not that tiring except for Lunch. I was assigned at the Champagne Bar for both Breakfast & Lunch. Breakfast was quite manageable so I was asked to help at the Main Restaurant. Cindy was like, "I know lah Aileen got four hands right!". I was running from Champagne Bar & Main Restaurant checking if everything's alright & under control. Lunch time was commited with 120pax. I did my job halfway at the Champagne Bar then I was asked to help the Main Restaurant with Jeremy & Eilon. Last two hours, everyone started running around, clearing plates & making more fucking coffees & teas. So yeah, finished till 4 in the afternoon. Went to Mac D with Jeremy & Isaac. Then 960ed to Marsiling & walked back home.

I've got no mood for now. So yeah.


See ya when I wanna be ya.




Love, ABJ.
God send me here to piss the world off, understand?!

Labels: Fucking Pissed

I swear it has been a tiring day eversince I started work yesterday -.-

09 November 2009.

First day of work. I did quite well & learnt how to fold the napkins within a day. Haha. I sort of worked as a runner for Breakfast & for lunch, the restaurant was fully commited & I'm stationed at the Main restaraunt which has the most number of people. Pft. Well, overall it was pretty tiring & my feet hurt real badly & it was aching as if I just finished a marathon. Work ended late by an hour plus & it was raining. The weather's pretty chilly so went to the library & watched some videos at Esplanade. At around six in the evening, we left for home.

10 November 2009.

I think we're going to go to work with Chee Hao & Dennis from 4-8 since they're working at Pan Pacific as chefs. Hahaha. Pretty cool. As usual, I woke upat 0445 Hrs. Got myself ready & everyone boarded the train by 0530Hrs. Walked with my cramped feet. Signed in & changed into my uniform then got ready for work. It was okay except that one of my manager Lu Ping keeps on disturbing me. But he was funny though. Should've seen the way he talked. & It was pretty cool that his Malay language was flueeeent.
(In malay, translated):

LP: Eh, Sandy say wear Baju Kurung so ugly.
Me: Why ah? Must cover your assets ma. -.-
LP: I don't know lah, you ask her.

*

LP: Eh, why you clean the plate your body so far away from it ah.
Me: Later the bin close the smell can faint.
LP: Aiya, like this you cannot work with SembCorp lah.
Me: HAHAHA. I don't want also~

It's abit irritating. Tsk. But I was laughing my butts out whenever he talked to me. -.-

Worked swee2 ended at three in the afternoon but Rachel called the three of us with Roy to do some inventory counting. I think Jeremy & I counted more than 2000 utensils. Somehow we felt like working at FairPrice or Ikea or something. Hahaha. So in total, we worked 10 Hours today. Oh well, tomorrow's another day of work.

I'm off to bed now!




Love, ABJ

Labels: Tired

Hello Earthlings.

I just woke up & I kept snoozing my phone so that I'll get extra half an hours' sleep. But I thought to myself that this has got to stop so I made the final snooze at eleven in the morning & woke up at eleven thirty! Showered & did the laundry. Cleaned my bedroom & currently online. I cannot sleep last night with so many things going through my mind. Ended up sleeping around 4.50 in the morning.

Since today's my last day officially rotting at home, I think I should just go out should my family goes out to have dinner or some family bonding time. No matter how lazy I am going to be, I need to shake that feeling off just for today & spend my time as much as I can with them before I start work.

I'll be starting my work tomorrow. Felt pretty petrified, nervous & excited. An overall mixed feelings so I don't know what's the precise word to use. But no doubt, the staff there are friendly. At the end of the day, I might just talk with a Philipino accent because most of my colleagues are one. Let's just hope it doesn't happend like how it happend when I was back in Thailand. It took me a month before I can speak English as per normal because I was so used to speaking basic English with slow pronounciations & doing handsigns when I went for OCIP. Ok, this is very random but I'm really nervous tomorrow & dread to wake up in the morning. I hope the train will be empty since I'll be leaving home around 5.30 in the morning -.-

It's only noon & I'm already blogging. From what I observed, the post I published since last week were crap. It's like I don't have anything proper to do & that it's so boring that I don't even have a story to share. Maybe I will, pretty soon. Dad's got the family a free ride of The Flyers thanks to his trainings :P Next free rides would be Street Luge @ Sentosa since his training will be conducted somewhere around this month & I'm allowed to followwww.

My life is defintely in a bad patch & I felt that there's more to come. Oh well, we'll see how things go. I just wanted to be alone these days, don't know why. To top it all off, some information was told when it happend a week ago. After all the betryal, don't you think it's too late now?

Izuan's asking AE's to have fun after my work somewhere around this week. I don't know but I wish I could refuse because I'm scared of young teenage firefighters. -.- It sounds pretty easy for you to say to refuse the outing but he's been a friend for I don't know how many years ever since we were young. Very young, actually. & The scariest part is, I don't want to receive any forms of offers about riding their motorbikes. I'm too young to die. OMG, I'm scared -.- Okay, forget it. I won't go if there's too many people unless AE's are there.

Shut up lah. End here. Bye.


Love, ABJ
Meeting different types of people from different walks of life: All the bad ones.

Hello everyone! I've got nothing much to do so I think I'll just blog what's on my mind. Haha.

I can't agree more that it has been a challenging week for me filled with anger & sadness, joy & happiness. A clearer line has been drawn finely for me to see that if you want something to be done or achieved, work our way towards it. Well in short, if you have a mind of a soccer player you'd understand the slogan: taking the pitch by the storm.

The picture's still running through my mind clearly about how I was so-called deceived. Of course, I surpressed my anger into something else by now. Or should I say I've forgiven the people about it but no doubt not forgetting it. I still love you a friend so I'd just move on & pretend not to know anything that took place although I was painfully inflamed that night. It's because I appreciate the previous advices & other forms of assistance when I'm in need. & For the fact that you were there for me. But I need a favour to stop the shit you've been doing to either wreck my circle of friends or inflict misunderstandings with others.

The class outing is still a mess. But I don't regret organizing. It's something I should continue to prevail since I took the initiative to oragnize this outing. 4-7 Will be joining us so I'm sure money is not a problem for now but the number of people who are willing to go & those people or are willing to spend their time at the market buying stuff & learning how to look items at a slashed price. I hope the outcome would be satisfying with the help of Uki & Jerong. So for those who are reading who belongs to 4NA, the outing will be on the 17 November 2009 @ ECP. Mark that day free, aye.

There's so many BBQ outings in November! Shit, I just remembered 17th November outing will clash with Ms Lim's belated birthday BBQ Outing with the Sec 4 councillors at Sembawang Park -.- Maybe I seriously need to take the day off and attend to either one of the outings in the afternoon & the other, at night. I'll see how I can compromise this. Another outing would be on the 28th at ECP with Muhsin & friends. The final major outing would be with the Aeon Marines at Sentosa some time between 14th-23th Nov. Pretty tight schedule all this month.

My love life's no different? It's been the same for the past three weeks & I'm getting the hang of it. But of course, I wouldn't stop loving people whom I should. Friends have been popping the same question which I cannot answer. Maybe I know but I'm just contradicting it -.- Oh well, life's so complexed these days.

Oh look, it's raining. Muhsin must've been singing to the birds with his guitar again. Haha.




Love, ABJ
It's time that you need some quiet time alone.

Labels: I'll Leave When The Wind Blows

Hello everyone. Life's been very hectic although I haven't start work -.-

I'm suppose to have soccer friendlies at Sentosa with Dad & his group of friends but I don't know what happend so I stayed home. Which is already the obvious I woke up quite early in the morning! So I went to the market & bought the stuff that I would be cooking. Saw Rafiq on the way home; I realised it has always been the same exact spot when we saw each other. WTH?

Cooked spaghetti today & fried some chickens. Was ubber disappointed one couldn't make it so I just waited for Ruzanna to come. Ate, watched TV & talked like other girls would when we would meet. Heh ^^ So we went to SSC & saw some familiar people that made me laugh my butts out due to Ruzanna's prediction. Then came an impromptu plan ; to Causeway Point! Walked around Causeway Point & bought some stuff before I start work on Monday. Ate at Mc D. Then there's this bikers who were looking at Rzna & I. I only realised something was wrong when I finished my meal & wanted to take our leave. Suddenly one of the turned around & said, "Convey our regards to your friends, eh."

Any idea how freaking disgusting it was? -.-

Went home after the big big hug. Missed the girls very much & am looking forward to any outings, aye! :D

Alright, lazy to blog about my night since it was a bad one. Who cares?




Love, ABJ
I hate you today, I can't find a way to drag me down now.

Labels: Thanks For Nothing

WAZAAAA!

I haven't even start work yet I'm feeling so hackneyed eversince I finished my N levels. Maybe it's because I've been sleeping late everyday watching Wipeout on AXN & laughing like a retarded girl alone in the living room in the wee hours of the night. I've been going out almost everyday & I feel like my body system is going to detonate.

Farah asked me if I was free today so we met up & trained to City Hall since I need to meet my manager to clear my doubts & giving extra information about the work. Janice's quite friendly & funny. There's once she tried to correct her seating position & she almost fell because she didn't realise where she's sitting & the sofa was no where near her. Luckily I grabbed her or else some other staff would've seen it & laugh their asses out. I chose to work in the morning shift from seven in the morning up till three in the afternoon. On certain weekends if Dad's working, I might go for work as well maybe from eight in the morning up till four in the evening depends on my mood. Heh ^^ I told you the timing was flexible. & We'll be having buffet everyday for lunch. Weehoo~

Afterwhich, roamed around Marina Square with Farah while waiting for Jeremy & Isaac to finish their work. Jeremy & Isaac wanted to go home as they are very tired from work so Farah & I continued to train to CCK since she wants to go Cotton On. Almost bought the white rosie jacket but thinking of it, I'll buy it if I'm still interested once I got my pay. Then had to buy a pair of black smart office shoe which I eventually bought it at twenty eight bucks & a mascara -.- Now I think I'm done with what I had to buy for work except for my hairclips & rubberbands. Money gone, money gone -.-

I'm suppose to go swimming any time this week with Jerong & friends but I got my period today. So suay -.- Urgh. PMS. Alright, I think I'm done now. Will blog shall there be any form of updates. Thanks for wasting your time reading this post, huh? -.-




Love, ABJ
Bored. Tired. Missing someone. Sleep early today!

Labels: Hackneyed

Hey ho!

Woke up in the morning & followed Dad to JB to get his carwash. Then walked around at Xtra where you can find the cheapest Ps2 games around. Haha. But it's a sad thing I didn't buy because I'm quite sick & tired of Playstation be it the portable one or not -.- Went home by noon & walked around at Causeway Point to check out on iPhone & some other mobile. No rush, though ^^

Then I went to meet Muhsin. Tsk, he got his Fifa 10 already! I'm so going to download ASAP. Then we AD HOC, aye? :P Later I thrash you, you thrash me. Haha. Memories~ So got new pet of two birds. Pretty adorable :D Muhsin says he's been singing for the birds almost everyday, no wonder I'm meeting him under such unfavourable weather conditions. HAHAHA. Why not come sing to me, or rather with me? :P

Went home, cooked for myself & currently blogging. I know, such a boring life I'm leading. But I'm quite excited to start work based on Jeremy's experience he shared with me. It's quite hectic & funny. But I'm not physically prepared to feel drained out -.- Oh well, it's time to practice resilience. Heh! I still don't know which shift to choose because I still need to think of how to stretch the time to spend with my lover :X

Alright, shall stop here. Will be meeting Janice tomorrow alone most probably since Muhsin cannot accompany meeeee. Hopefully I don't have to do so much of a runner's job. I think I'll die -.-




Love, ABJ
How can one tell if someone was missing a person?

Labels: Falling In Love Again

The weather's quite windy today. I'm loving it. Hehe ^^ Practically in a better shape of mood today. Hope it'll stay cheery. I've been rotting away for half a day at home now. Been watching TV. There's this Sunday Matinee on Channel 8. Fighting for Love is a great movie. HAAAAAAAAA. Now I'll go kick some butt & fight for what's mine :P Heh, kidding.

There's few wedding invitations but I didn't tag along with my parents as I hate the ovulating crowds & those typical Malays when they meet like as though there were just born yesterday -.- Funny how people can be. Maybe I'll be going out after Maghrib with my family to look for a new phoneeee. I doubt I'll get it today or anytime sooner but I'm not that excited though. I don't know why. Still, I'm looking forward & wonders what phone I'll end up purchasing.

Nothing much to blog about so I guess I'll stop here. I'll see you when I see you!

& I want you to know,
That it doesn't matter, where we take this road
Someone's gotta go.

There's no moving on, so I'm already gone. 

Love, ABJ
You know that I love you so I, love you enough to let you go.

Labels: I Don't Want Us To Burn