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Saturday, January 31, 2009 9:41 PM
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Quickie updates! 30 Jan o9 seemed to be alright. I was happy most of the time laughing every single minute away. Even I had fun training (for the first time); probably everyone's in a good mood. & After trainings, I'd go home with Dear :D I won't go out on Fridays because I'll be too tired to go out by then. So yeah, basically nothing much happend. I just hate Fridays + weekends because there's no school. 31 Jan o9 was boringgggggg. Except in the morning I had to report for school for Home Nursing. Mr R had a foul mouth. When we had conversations, he made comments and views in such a sarcastic way. But they say, the other side is always greener. He's kind of funny, maybe for today only because we're just starting to heat things up. We're supposed to finish at 1230Hrs but we ended two hours earlier. So Syazwana, Xin Yi, Yan Ling & I cleaned up SJAB room until 1200Hrs. I got no one to accompany me to see somethings which I needed to buy together with Syazwana but everyone doesn't seem to be free so I went home straight. Reached home, I started texting Dear until I fell asleep :P When I woke up, I texted Dear again until night falls. So yeah, in conclusion what I did all day was school, sleep, texting Dear, TV and dinner. Sorry for the boring post. Life's alright so far but the things I'm doing kind of killing me softly -.- Love,ABJ Mistakes don't define you, they REMIND you- Thursday, January 29, 2009 9:44 PM
The Script
Hello everyone! Blog wasn't updated for a few days already, so I'm going to strike the iron while it's hot! So these recent days have been quite well, I'm afraid it's not going exceptionally well or what not. Still thankful though, each day's a gift and not a given right. Let's just skip and swing full focus for today. 29 Jan o9 was quite an ordinary day like any other with the exception that there's Assembly on OCIP. I was one of the speakers and I hope I didn't screw up anything this morning because the ambience was much more intense compared to yesterday's Assembly with the Lower Sec probably due to having this mindset that you're friends are watching you speak. Ironically, I didn't feel nervous yesterday and Bing Yi still got the cheek to stare at me to make me feel more pressurised but sorry to say, I dominated all those yesterday. However, I felt extremely nervous in the morning because of the above stated reasons. 16YO added more to the speech which came without warning to me. I don't want to make as though her efforts had been wasted by rushing through to help with the script, so I gave my shot to just blurt everything that's in store. Feedbacks? They say it was okay. Goodness. Buddy casted a remark saying he's watching BBC -.- In class, we were to share OCIP stories again with everyone. Including Mr Ravin shared. Hilarious. Lessons were okay. I managed to pay attention except for Physics. But somehow I need to improve on manipulating which numerals to use according to the formulas. I think I'm going to pass Physics test but not so well :/ Haha! Okay, I think that's it. Now my upcoming plan for the weekend ahead is to find presentsssss for February babies. Love,ABJ Sunday, January 25, 2009 2:28 PM
Gone For Good
Hello everyone. Thousand apologies for not updating yesterday. 24 Jan o9 was a boring day to spend. Although it's quite boring, I spent at least half of it fruitfully studying my Chemistry for it's upcoming test. So yeah, in the evening studied a little bit more then went out for dinner with Family at Sakura! :D It's been a while since I went there. Went back home, continued my revision till I fell asleep in the living room till dawn breaks. 25 Jan o9 is much of a mundane weekend especially when Dad's working. & Dear's going back to Kampung for a few days. I guess I'll just rot at home and study. Afterall, it's a good thing to do and Mum will be pleased. Well, I can't afford to waste so much time this year. With the economic reccessions not booming out that good, and N Levels to take in months to come. It's a very tough year to get by. I'm planning to get a B3 for my Chemistry this upcoming test. So better do well because I've always hated Chemistry and failed it -.- I passed a B3 once throughout last year, pft. I survived a Combined Science subject, thanks to Physics. All in all, I'm aiming to get 11 Points from the cut off point of 19 for N Levels. I won't be blogging tomorrow and Tuesday, I guess since Dear's not around for me to chat with. So I'll revive the blog once Dear's back :D I feel like taking a dip at Issey's condo on Thursday. Anyone? Cynthia? & Hail, my birthday is less than two weeks time. Guess Buddy & the rest are celebrating my day at Sakura or Seoul Garden. Woo~ On the other hand, I'm not looking forward to be a sixteen. EXILED!!! I'm gonna miss dear ): 26 Jan o9 marks the Lunar New Year. Thus, it's being celebrated by all Chinese around the world. What are you waiting for? Go & probably get the best beers in the world and hold it up high. It's the year of the Ox, so let's work diligently and endure the challnge for our goals. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone who celebrates it. May you live in bliss and good health throughout the year! (Money is secondary, so I'll hold that back up for nowas part of the wish) Now, go enjoy your Yu-Sheng & Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam Seng! :D P/s: My birthday falls on the 9th day of Lunar New year. Perhaps, you might want to get me a red packet as well? HAHAHAHA :P Love,ABJ Friday, January 23, 2009 8:18 PM
3 Days of No Grace
Here's the updates. 21 Jan o9 was a normal typical day. Had 3 Periods of English lessons & I spent them fruitfully. PE was exciting, I think. Ran 2 rounds at the park. Passing mark 12.10minutes but I got 9.25minutes. Somehow not satisfied, thought I could reach my target of 9minutes. Then we went back in school to practice standing broad jump and inclined pull ups. Last week I got a 10 for inclined pull ups, now I managed to do 18 :D SS was as usual, the class would bully A.tan. Physics was damn hilarious with Alex & Shz Wei sitting in front of me. I was teaching XiaoGe some malay phrases: Me: Aku nak pinjam seluar ^&*( kau. XiaoGe: Aku nak binjam seluar ^&*( aku. Me: HAHAHAHAHA. Means your want to lend your own under^&*( ah? HAHAHAHAHA & So, I've yet to teach him some other pervertic phrases. MT was boring. Did last year's Prelim comprehension paper. 21/25 :D After school, went to Causeway Point with Dear, Fir & Ming to find some stationery then I went home with Dear. 22 Jan o9 was a boring day. Somehow I felt it'd being dragged. Home Period was filled with laughter and had Maths for 2 Periods which means Mr Ravin stayed with the class for roughly 4 Periods since Assembly ended slightly early. Got my Maths Test result. I thought I was going to fail but I got a B3 :D Okay de. But those who got 90% & above received a $10 each from Mr Ravin. WTH~ Well afterall, I agree that money is secondary in life. Geography was boring and presentations suck, depends what topic you'll be discussing about lah. Chemistry was sleepy but I learnt well :D After lunch, we had Physics. Again, I was laughing my butts out :l Went home with Dear & I got an eyewash! Dear knows what I mean............................ 23 Jan o9 is considered an awe especially to beloved 4Na6 (: Mr Oh gave us a fcuking lame red packet with cash sales receipt for everyone with comments. I'll post the pictures once I snapped & uploaded them. On the brighter note, we got something real which we've been expecting ; Mr Ravin gave us $2 each :D Half a loaf is better than no bread, true? We were then asked by Mr Ravin to put our red packet on our pocket so that explains why you've seen the whole class with red packets in their pockets- as a sign of good luck. Tsk. So yes, started with the class activity and 4Na7 were giving us extra oranges. & From my observation, I think it'll be a tough competition of class team spirit. Because 4Na6 helped 4Na7 and vice-versa. If you realise, some of the items were similar. But I believe my class is more civilised & organised :P For the first time, I'm not involved in some Councilor shit & got to spend quality time with my classmates. If not, I'll be running up and down around the school like some basketcase. After school, went to the coffeeshop to eat. Then went for training. Was tiring but I know the commander & sub-commander themselves *ehem* endured :D So that's my day today. Currently feeling my eyelids were damn heavy. I want to sleep early and wake up late tomorrow! But there's ngaji. Well, I'm going to go for once instead of twice during the weekends in the future because it's very tiring. Sure thing, in time to come there'll be intensive programmes going on and FAC is just round the corner. Haiya~ 3 More monthsssssssss then I books will be my aunts and uncles, not friends (: Love,ABJ He says each day's a gift & not a given right- Thursday, January 22, 2009 9:33 PM
Hiatus
ON HIATUS MODE FOR A DAY OR TWO. Will summarise on those days which weren't posted due to fatigue. Till then, people (: Love,ABJ I'm loving you twice as much as days go by- Tuesday, January 20, 2009 4:16 PM
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Sorry for not updating yesterday. I enjoyed almost every lesson except POA & English bores me :/ CE was fun! Mrs Kok came into the class and gave us M&M chocolates. M=Monitoring M=Mentoring We were supposed to do a reflection on last Friday's CIP. Then Mr Ravin permitted us to eat those chocolates while doing the reflection :D Benny & I topped up our chocolates from people next table. Ate them until we feel damn bloated :/ After school, spent time with Dear & got my lazy ass home around 1800Hrs. Then Dad & I went to Causeway Point to take a look at spectacles. Dad agreed to let me have Police spectacles for 300Bucks lor, but I pity him because of my handphone bills :/ So ended up buying Brown Esprit framed spectacles. After which, we went to the foodmall last second level to have our dinner errr... with Dad's Captain or something because it's said that the world is small. Haha. Talk about Sunday's night match against Bishan Fire Station firefighters. Blabla bought a takeaway at Mc D for Bro & went home. 20 Jan o9 was abit of a hectic day for me. I'm feeling very very lethargic. Woke up at 0645Hrs, got myself ready and made my way to Dear's bus stop to go to school with him. Lessons are okay I guess, & I paid extra attention for POA's class. Some had A Maths but I was self-studying getting Nazme's help on Balance day accountings. During Chemistry people around me at the last row were very very sleepy. Especially for me, I had to strain my eyes because I can't see and the stupid powerpoint slides font contrasts were too bright. With inclusive of the aircon, what does it tell you? I slept at the back but my ears were still wide open :P Thus, I didn't miss a thing. After school, went for SJAB FAC training. Can say NC did better this time together with the AC. Rushed home for tuition. Ate some crappy food making me hungry still -.- Met Dear downstairs and off we went for my tuition. Bought some waffles before that :D *SKIP TUITION WAS OKAY AH, BUT NO KICK. Advocate of the day: Dah inflict too much damage ): Love,ABJ Sunday, January 18, 2009 9:45 PM
Interpol
Hello everyone :D Summary of the day: Woke up in the morning around 1000Hrs. Showered. Had breakfast and helped Mum with some baking. I'm good and mixing the dough because the mixture will rise fast thus, Mum shouldered the responsibility. That's my flaw under baking? :P Watch TV until half past one to go online. Kind of doing a multi-task job while doing my homework together and chatting to Dear. After which, I spent my day watching TV again. Gosh, I'm starting to worry in my studies. Thought of wanting to go Causeway Point with my family to get a new spectacles for me since it broke. But that's the lifespan; I always change my spectacles every 3-5 years. Haha. Mum was tired so we're going to get them tomorrow after work, I guess. Current homework is left with some corrections which needed to be done in Math A3 & summary writing which sucks. But on the other hand, I had to only extract those 15 main points in 3 paragraphs. Do-able I guess, but I got the feeling it's hard to got them out from the text. That's how well I spent the Sunday. Rotting away, much? Moving on, I'd like to rant out some issues which may seem trivial but for the minority, I bet it's disturbing. Before I start, the advisory content is to an extent whereby it doesn't happend to and individual him/herself but as a whole lot, in general. People were given responsibility to plan the CNY concert which had to be performed by some group of people among us. I have no obligations to that. Practically fine with it until I found out from one who told me that the planner invited people to be in the concert when this item should only come from a certain group of people. Strictly no one else. But if they're wanting to do so, raise up your head and ask the question. With your interests at heart of performing, I'm sure you'll get a chance to do so. However, the problem doesn't really lie on the people 'outside' The planner's objective is to partly get this group of people among us to perform the item, not asking someone else who's not with us. With inclusive of that the planner didn't ask for any consent by the member of the advisory committee. Let me just say that some of us here aren't happy with your decisions of making no consent avail. Heard that rationale's being emphasized, does it fall on deaf ears? Whatever it is, I'll just keep quiet & let you have your way people. But one day, I guess you're doomed to be someone in someone else's shoes. Ain't bearing any grudge, but you have to begin with the end in mind. Currently: Chatting to Dear :D *Hopefully Dear'll get well soon! Not forgetting... HAPPY BELATED 2 YEARS ANNIVERSARY, HONEY BUNNY ! :P At times, I may be falling apart and barely breathing but something out of you made me stay close. With a broken heart, that's still beating I've had it all. I'm sure you do too. But thanks a million for staying with me throughout those good& bad times. However, going through bad patches with you & those crying moments made me feel stronger, emotionally. Therefore, I've to thank you for all those moments and shape me the way I am today. & I'll always love you, cheerios to a longer relationship. Love,ABJ Saturday, January 17, 2009 12:44 PM
Saturday
Hello people. Hello weekend! Nothing much to blog about but I'll try to make it alive like any other usual weekdays kinda entry. Today's plans is to finish my Algebra 3 worksheet which Mr Ravin gave me a leeway because I was absent the first two days of the week. Well, just need to solve some questions which I didn't manage to because I was sleepy thus unable to do it. Then I'll finish up my Indices worksheet which I aim to finish latest by tomorrow. Family & I are going out most probably today and tomorrow so I thought that I won't have enough time to do some revisions but I'll try to cover up on other subjects as much as I can. In conclusion, I got to learn to be nimble. Haha! I wished it was yesterday because I'm smiling ear to ear from day to night long. & I had a bubbly conversation with Dear last night which was somewhat funny to everything he says :P It's been a long time since we had a nice conversation, huh. All in all, I just hope my days will be like yesterday. Of course, I demand no ups & downs but they're inevitable. Well, what to do?~ Life's like that. Haha. Thought I can wait for Dear to go online but I just found out that he's already out ): So I guess, that's all for now? Will blog for any updates if I have the free will to do so! Love, ABJ Friday, January 16, 2009 8:59 PM
Everyday
Hello people! Sorry for not updating yesterday. Was really busy with homework and stuck on the desk for 3 solid hours, not. 15 Minutes away from the desk to have my dinner & back to homework :P Feeling lethargic by then so decided not to go online since Dear's not online too, I suppose? Still, I never fail to at least text Dear :D My life's incomplete without texting/chatting to Dear although we're loggerheads at times. I slept at 2330Hrs because I got hooked with American Idol :l 16 Jan o9 is fun I guess? :P Had 2 Periods of English. I completed my homework & had no bad debts. Thanks to myself who persevered till the very end last night chiong-ing on homework. Then 2 Periods of MT. We didn't study. Cikgu Memy shared with the whole class about how she met her husband etc. The class should say that her story is funny and grotesque. After that we had 1 Period of HomePeriod. Basically, the whole class got ourselves busy with he Chinese New Year class competition. For the first time ever, I'm starting to feel a positive synergy of class team spirit. We're all holding onto the last six candles before it goes off, I suppose? (As in, we're graduating soon so we had to cherish good times and go through bad times together.) I feel so touched. Haha! After which, non A Maths students had 3 Periods of self study. Rushed my POA homework with Zul & Dian giving us the answers + peer tutoring. I made a cunning move to save myself from Ms Han submitting my name to the Principal :/ Nevertheless, I made things happen so I did all that Holiday homework during the self study. Therefore, I've accomplished my POA Holiday Homework & now I don't owe anymore holiday homework to any subject teachers :D Successes are meant to be celebrated, soon I'll do that. Haha! Kidding, no time ah. Had CIP after school. Kayeh was the only one who didn't come for it. He doesn't simply care kinda guy, so I guess he'll get his desserts this Monday from Mr Ravin? Grouped myself with Benny,YK & CK. But Sharifah & Larry went together with us. Feeling hungry, we went to the 8th floor and took a bag of oranges :/ & Waiting for the lift is like waiting for mango to drop from a tree, can? Other classmates were purposely doing it so we cannot take the lift. Thus, I got this bright and sly idea. The boys & I went to every floor pressing the lift so they won't get to the ground floor. HAHA :P *SKIP Went back to school and stayed back to help with the class decorations. Nazme & I did some saikang job bringing up the curtains while the rest were busy commenting 'Ok ok, move the curtain more to the left, no no. Right. Eh stop. Ok, there.' Like WTH! Yay, we're gonna get Starcards anyway :P & P/s ah, some 4 great leaders didn't get any recognition for cleaning the Thinking Hub like crap until 2am during the camp lor. Pft~ Haha, woops, this year's resolution ; give more demand less :P So yeah, after all that help in class it looks kinda home ambience. Until then we left school for home when Dear's busy playing soccer! Hahaks. That's my day today. & I broke my spectacles! Time to get a new one :D P/s P/s! Check out my OCIP Reflection on the CE Board in the canteen (where Dear + friend sits). Don't ask who's An An. Take the first and last capital of AIIN. Mine special lor, 2 page leh. Urge you to have a look on my cheem words :P & Check out those pictures. Ahhh, memories~ Love,ABJ Wednesday, January 14, 2009 10:39 PM
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Hello people, won't be updating much today, I guess because I'm very, very tired. Summary of the day: I went to school and many people were like' Hello! Welcome back, what happend to you?' -.- Okay, but I felt the warmness of the soul. First 3 periods was English. Overall, quite a boring lesson then I had 2 periods of PE. Had no 2 .4Km trial run today): So did standing broad jump & inclined pull up for the girls will be next week. I'm always ranked second among the grls for broad jump. Sharifah dominated it all! ): Nevertheless, I'm aiming for 210cm for upcoming NAPFA even though I only got 175cm just now even though it's like already an A? & Pft, I cannot take points under 15 Yrs old but had to take one step older kind of criteria. WTH. After recess was 2 periods of Physics. The lesson was alright I guess? Mr Oh: Okay, correct deceleration. Wah, you're class quite good ah. Who's your previous Physics teacher? Class: Your WIFE. Hahahaha~ Mr Oh: *step shy look* Afterwhich, we had MT & Cikgu Memy reshuffled out seats but luckily wasn't me. I had to sit with Izwan but I didn't talk to him though, annoying freak!!! On the other hand, Buddy,Khy, Atiqah & Sharifah were sitting near me so we still kind of made a lot of noise. Just now we had some 'Ifs' Questionnaire or something. Khy: Jika saya muhsim(musim) sejuk.... Buddy: Jika saya musimmm sejuk.... Me: Cikgu!!! Dorang kacau saye!!!! >.< Cikgu Memy: Awak jangan kacau Aiin ngan Muhsin, yer! Was like WTF lah, embarassing. Buddy, you're a freaking asshole (: After lunch had 2 periods of SS. A.Tan was busy showing O level Combined Humanities last year's results. & The class went like yadayadayada~ I went to the toilet twiceeeeeeee in 5 minutes can?! Then the class thought I had some dirrahoea. Paiseh. All thanks to the stupid medicine -.- School ended at went home with Dear. Tomorrow's a longggggg day. My OCIP Meeting clashed with my SJAB FAC training can? It's always the case! & People blame me for giving extra commitments to Councilor. Don't know my situation then jolly well shut your trap can? -.- Of course the issue's drag till when I'm back home. How you think it feels to get demoraliseddddddddd? I'm done. Byeeeeeeee. Love,ABJ Tuesday, January 13, 2009 10:44 PM
Grief
I can't believe I say I'd lay our love on the ground but it doesn't matter 'cause I made it up, forgive me now. Summary of the day: Didn't go to school today. 16YO called me around 0915Hrs & I picked up the phonecall with my coarse voice. 16YO: Aiin, can I know why you're not in school today? Me: I got an eye infection & *cough* sore throat. 16YO: Oh, okay. Rest well. Thank you, byebye. Me: Byee~ I spent the day alone at home feeling sick ): To kill time & kiss away the pain, I took some pictures and baked some Nescafe biscuits for me to munch on! Good attempt at first start. All hail~ Okay, after that went for tuition. Met up iJan slightly earlier to go NTUC buy some chocolates. Today's lesson was okay, peaceful without Nazme but my Maths worksheet was with him -.- & The sums today were abit tedious, damn I hate studying standard deviation. Algebra's still the best :D :D Went home, then off downstairs to the shop again to buy some camp stuffs for Bro who'll be going for a 3D2N camp. Bye Bro! Don't come back! I'll dominate Wolfteam I tell youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :D So yeah, withdraw some cash for myself tomorrow and went back home. Ate some light stuff, ironed my clothes and currently online. Rushing to do my homework, classmates & bestbuddies chatting to me. I'm doing good alright people, thanks for asking (: I'll come back tomorrow and make a din in class. & Afiq, you better cover me on POA -.- As usual, life sucks these days. Oh well, I think I'm going scuba diving with my family during CNY holidays. Cast aside my problems into the deep blue sea! :D However, I decided to keep myself shut for these few days. So I won't be entertaining people much due to unforeseen circumstances. Thank you for your kind understanding. & Tomorrw's 2.4Km trial run. Wooooh, can't wait to run my hearts out. Run for life 'cause it's good for a long life to love & live~ Aiin, please do not be too emotional -.- Feedbacks from fellow readers: I try not to, but what to do. Aiin will change into a more argumentative person if you pressure her for nothing. Aiin will change her attitude towards one who allegedly accuses her again, for nothing. For not being told the truth in what's being said. Aiin will make you feel like she's ignoring you for life if you're going overboard. Current new rules in me. Life had to be selfish. Ain't giving in so soon & easily. I had to be strong & firm although the inside's still weak when she's actually grieving for her loved ones to care. May see as someone who's loud when she's actually soft-spoken. Very few people knows that. How sad... ): Love,ABJ It's dyin' but keep believin' tho' it doesn't show on the outside- Monday, January 12, 2009 9:49 PM
Sad Depressed
Summary of the day: Okay, so I didn't go to school today becaue my eye infection deteriorated. Woke up again around 1100Hrs, showered and Dad accompanied me to go to the clinic. Was a fast proccess, in less than 2 minutes I was out of the room. Quite fast, all the better. Doctor says I got an eye infection but I really don't know how I get it. I don't wish to know, but if the condition worsen after the doctor prescribed some medications then I had to go to the hospital for operation. I asked the doctor to give me 2 days of MC. It'll be good that way because I'm not in the mood to see everyone in school anyway. Life kinda sucks these days. Sigh, what luck I have. Went home, heated up the food, had my meal and took my medication. After which, I spent the day by watching TV. & Fell asleep for nearly two solid hours because of the pill I took. Somehow the whole family is addicted to watching Chinese Dramas. Both 1900Hrs & 2100Hrs =.= ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Emotions doesn't seem to set right these days. It's been close to a week I've been feeling low, both physically and emotionally. However, when I'm in school I tried my best focusing on my studies rather than anything else. I hope I'm strong enough to withstand this relationship matters throughout the year. & When I'm down, I know I can fall back down on my own class who never fails to make me laugh at least a minute everyday. Despite feeling down, I know I somehow laughed more than that but that's just the way it is to kiss away the pain. & When I reached home, things will get moody and boring. Thus reaching home late nowadays :/ Hoped that I won't resort to doing stupid stuff which can vast my future. What I'm currently feeling is just wanting to cry my hearts out and not care about the world anymore. I guess I've been priortising else's feelings rather than mine. This time I had to be selfish in my own way, I'm sorry but the world itself isn't kind. I just want to stay strong, but why do I have this obnoxious attitude towards the people I love. It seems that being stubborn is the current roadblock that stops my plan from going the way I want. Sigh, can't I just feel happy naturally? I mean all that shit of laughters and jokes I made in school were actually just for me to put up on a good show to recieve a standing ovation among the sea of people. Love,ABJ He says each day's a gift & not a given right- Sunday, January 11, 2009 12:55 PM
Downfall
What a weekend, seriously. What did I do to get this kind of pain- in the eye. Yesterday morning when I woke up my left eye was puffy & swollen. & Worse still, my left eye is very very very small compared to the right one. What makes it more frustrating that I don't know how the Hell I got this damn thing. I'm pretty sure I got this infected from a classmate of mine. Actually this virus had spread to more than 2 people in my class since last year, and currently still spreading. So I guess I'm the unlucky one & got this at the wrong timing. I hope it'll go off an get well by tomorrow morning so I can go to school. If not, I guess my aims were dashed? Trying to get full attendance but I don't think I can ): It's only the first term, mayne & I got a 0 attendance on one of the days. Damn, how unlucky can I get. On the other hand, I cannot contradict myself. Afterall, health is important. So I don't care if I'm coming to school or not. There's no one to care about me in school, anyway. So yeah. Feeling all out of love, all out of hope. That explains the story of my life. Anguish. Agony. WHAT A DOWNFALL. IN HEALTH. IN LOVE. IN LIFE. Love,ABJ Saturday, January 10, 2009 7:50 PM
Walking On Air
Check out this video. Pretty creepy but the song's pretty nice. Okay, people. Summary of the day: Woke up minutes to afternoon only to find myself in such a static shock. My left eye was puffy & it feels like a concussion which I doubt so. There's possibilities that it's an insect bite or a classmate of mine who also has one infect me as well. Pft. FYI, I got that last week on my right eye but it was trivial compared to this one. Dad's working & Bro went to school leaving Mum & I at home. Breakfast wasn't really laid on the table when I went into the kitched, Mum was busy knitting. So, I cooked myself some instant noodles and swallowed a pill I felt drowsy. Nevertheless, I continued texting Dear... Knocked out again, eventually. I didn't really get to sleep, it's like when I close my eyes I still am paying attention to the surroundings. Woke up at 1600Hrs. I felt bored and I was walking around the house aimlessly. Afterwhich, I realized it's better to kill time doing my Math homework and preparing for my first Maths class test next week. I spent roughly 2Hours doing solving the sums from scratch although I managed to complete a quarter of the paper yesterday. & Vuala! I completed my homework. I plan to finish up my English holiday homework tomorrow. This is my final call, I won't delay any further. & I was told that there's Holiday Homework for POA but I didn't manage to find the bloody worksheet. In fact, I don't even think it exist in one of my files. Seriously, I need to accumalate last year's worksheet and dump it in the bin which leaves me with a more spacious cupboard for storage. Sheesh, but I simply had no time to do all that. Dad's been pestering me to clean all the junk in my bags & cupboards. My Dad's prone to making noise if he sees things lying all over the place in the house. Next thing you know is that your stuff might end up getting misplaced when he cleans the area or worse still, the bin. Which always got Mum flared up when she can't find her things. On the brighter note, Dad's one who upholds high standards in the house & not the type who can stand messy places even the corridor. Another thing, whenever I want to write my name it's always have been a habit to write it in full, my Index Number, my class & date. But one of it always get me cursing for writing the wrong thing, my Index Number. Last year, I used to be 10. But as for this year, I am 08 thus I keep writing 10 as my Index Number. Pft~ It's okay. Afterall it's Gerrard's number :P Weeeeeeeeee~ Moving on, next week during the Assembly will be OCIP sharing with the school. I somehow feel nervous because that freaking Makcik can post any funny pictures of me. Pft~ & Friday will be CIP day, we will be giving oranges to the residents. Weeee, then I'll get lotsa lotsa oranges for free in the ____________ room again! :D :D :D Current Music: Saving My Face-KT Tunstall Love,ABJ Go on, & you'll be forgiven- Friday, January 9, 2009 10:54 PM
Don't Call Me When You're Sober
 I know nothing of your kind. & I'm born to fill your evil mind, is it over yet? I can't wait. Really felt devastated that night which made me sleep through the pain. The situation reminded me of the times during my Sec 3 Councilor Camp whereby Melvin asked each& everyone of us 'How does it feel to be accused?' & I clearly remembered what I replied. 'I'll feel frustrated and upset because I cannot convince others the truth'. Now, I felt that way. The picture I encountered was very obvious. I didn't feel angry that much, but I feel very upset what was being conveyed to me when the person is actually the one whom I love, alot. To avoid any combative conversation further, I kept quiet. & As I'm typing I sobbed uncontrollably putting myself on the verge of crying but I had to try not to cry because my parents were around. Keeping myself calm and not let emotions take over me was all I can ever resort to at that moment. It's over for now... but instincts has it that we belong together. There's reassurance in me, but not guranteed. Thus, I'm worried. Moments of the ole' days kept me remeniscing about going head over heels with the unexpected person. But neither do I have the sense of damn regret that clots in mind. & When Sharifah shot me a question, I went dumbstruck for a while and seriously the particular thing she said was disappointing. However, I didn't blame her for what she said by her observation. I think it's true and clear enough for the whole world to see what's going on. I don't have to breathe a word regarding it. Sigh. Guess I'm not that good in hiding my dire love live now, huh. So sacrifice yourself, & let me have what's left. I've been waiting for 3 hours for one to go online. But I guess I won't get the answer today. Or there's no hope at all for now? My hopes are dashed. Love,ABJ Thursday, January 8, 2009 10:43 PM
Mad
I'm sitting wondering what's she thinking Nobody's talking, cause talking just turns into screaming And now it's I'm yelling over her, she's yelling over me All that, that means is neither of us listening And what's even worse We don't even remember why we're fighting So both of us are mad for... Nothing, (fighting for) Nothing, (crying for) Nothing, whoa But we won't let it go for Nothing, (no, not for) Nothing, this should be Nothing to a love like we got Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain But baby, can we make up now? Cause I can't sleep through the pain And I dont want you to go to bed mad at me No I don't want to go to bed mad at you And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me And it gets me upset, Asking questions like you already know... Been fighting this war Baby when both of us are losing This aint the way love is suppose to go What ever happen to working it out? We've falling into this place Where you ain't backing down And I ain't backing down So what the hell do we do now? It's all for... Oh baby this love ain't going perfect And just how good it's going to be We can fuse it, we can fight As long as everything is all right between us Before we go to sleep Baby we're going to be... 4:13 PM
Seize The Day III
Pardon me for the short entry yesterday, was hell alot of a day! o7 Jan 09 was the last day of Sec 1 Orientation & Play First, Then Study programme ): It was a memorable day for me especially the Facilitators with their own set of kids in Secondary 1. I managed to seize the day but it wasn't enough for me, though :/ & As usual throughout the Orientation, the schedule were constantly updated & I'm contented all of us managed to react fast when things got updated. 1-7 Did their best, in terms of cheering & being supportive during icebreaker games. I raised my voice right at their faces but hey, you know I didn't mean to. Dinny left me an advice which struck me all-gone quiet scenario making me reflect. After each time I raised my voice at those Sec 1's, I'll find my own time & ask myself whether I made the correct move at the correct time. But seriously, some Sec 1's went overboard and wanted things to go their own way, which we the Councilors make it real impossible for them to. I'm thankful that my 1-7 weren't being a bunch of goodie-two shoe like some other classes. Really, I felt that the class I'm facilitating knows how to behave, have fun and knows when to get serious when I needed their utmost attention :D Thus, when I went home for a while yesterday (& Met Thiba's sister to get 1-8's flag) I made my way to Sheng Shiong and spent $8.50 on candies for my beloved 1-7. & Pft, of all timessssss I got this feedback about myself from the juniors I led (be it Sec 2 NE Camp/ Sec 1 Orientation) ; 'She's too fierce but she's friendly afterall'. & Mr Faraz said 'Wah Aiin, you're firm. That's good' Currently sitting on the fence, am I too fierce or what? All in all, the facilitator who raised her/his voice scolding the Sec 1's was actually me -.- o8 Jan o9 is the first day we're starting the lessons, officially but majority of the subject teahers spent their time going through their expectations during lessons in the future. Pft. Mr Ravin's lesson until recess time, seriously I don't get bored of it because I find it very enjoyable. The class never fails to laugh and learn at the same time, unlike last year......... Oh Goodness. Maths was fun & practically easy this time. Did N Level + O Level questions from different year etc. Geography, Mdm Chan spent time talking about life & stuff. Searching for jobs during Holidays after N levels so-called future plan. Chemistry was boring! The pace was very, very slow & I sat at the back F14 -.- Buddy & I were segregated but majority of the people around me are influensive, I'm abit disturbed. Pft. After lunch, had Physics but we played some jigsaw puzzle game. & Some of us were trafficking with Anwar's last jigsaw piece so that he'll get the last to finish up everything. All in all, we didn't study that much. There's Maths lesson tomorrow, hooray! & MT. Then it'll be freetime for 3 periods for 4-6 non A Maths students :D CCA is such a chore, I can't wait for April/May -.- & I got this slight damn regret kinda feeling. Aiin! How could you be so stupid! Things to do: Physics worksheet 2 Composition, 1 Situational Writing, 2 Comprehensions (English) POA 2 Maths worksheet Chemistry TYS Target Setting SS Current summary of life: Life's getting bored and aloof these days. Love,ABJ Somebody else that feels the same somewhere- Wednesday, January 7, 2009 2:14 PM
Breath II
I'M DONE WITH THESE ENDEAVOURS. I just want to lose myself tonight among the sea of people & Wash away the pain I have~ Monday, January 5, 2009 10:11 PM
If Today Was Your Last Day II
Hello people. Today's Monday blue is not my list! :D Went to school as per normal. Met my 1-7 in the morning and kept them accompanied and led by Dinny & I. The spirit in the morning was DEAD for the boys, but as for girls whom I already assigned them to do the flag-making was alright. At least I can see team spirit among the girls. But I'm practically annoyed with the boys with their couldn't careless attitude. So, I gave them a solid lecture and hit my file on the desk as I was talking to them until it got damaged. Thus, I had to get a new file by tomorrow. Pft. After recess, their class spirit got the better of it. Thanks to the lecturing, I suppose. & I got to admit that feeling of breaking down during my Sec 2 NE Camp came back for a moment, where all hopes seemed lost. But thankfully, I managed to control my emotions. One achievement, & Like Mr Loy said just now 'Every achievements is a success, so you must celebrate' HAHA, BULLCRAP lah! Kidding, I wouldn't celebrate over something trivial. Left the class halfway & attended Mrs Kok formal address in the Theaterette. Was funny lah! The best talk ever with Mrs Kok. & At the end of it, we all say 'Thank you, MAMA' Wah, I feel so touched having a teacher like that, damn it. I wonder what's she going to give us, says it's edible. Not MARS Chocolate she says :l Then continued my day with 1-7. Power, of all flags I found my own facilitated class has the nicest and colourful designs \m/ Must win, okay ;D *SKIP Went home with Dear & in the bus some big sized lower secondary student stared at Dear. & Dear was being very meaaaaaaaaaan! I admit I wanted to burst out laughing ah, but being allied will strikeout my resolution made :P So control people, control. HAHAHAHA, God I felt happy with the day spend. If today was your last day, would you make a mark by mending a broken heart? & A thousand apologies for stepping on Dear's expensive shoe :D Love,ABJ Sunday, January 4, 2009 9:43 PM
Lazy
LAZY TO BLOG! Everyday I spend away my souls inside out, Gotta be some way that I can make it up to you now, somehow. Love, ABJ Saturday, January 3, 2009 11:44 PM
Skrewed
Hello Earthlings, sorry for not updating yesterday. FRIDAY o2 JAN was the first day of school. I was the Facil for class 1-7 with Dinny. They were very,very quiet and I felt like I was stranded having this mentality, 'Welcome to the Alienation'. I just can't communicate with the Sec Ones. They said the Familiarization Tour was pathetically boring, what to do. It's part of your oritentation, well? It's over now. However, I hope the communication gets better on Monday & so forth. & Dinny, I'll be mentoring you 'cause that's my job. Now don't make me shoulder your jobs & responsibilities. Or else, I'll kill you. Since there wasn't much going on that day with the Sec Ones, Dinny & I were struggling to debrief them. Thus, we just ended the day like that. I'm sure other Facils encountered the same situation, for some. Monday will be flag making & cheering. I wonder how things will go. I'm scared. It's like I'm talking to a wall you know, oh how I wish they're enthusiastic like the Thai students. Okay, I'm in no position to have anything much to say. Afterall, I cannot compare pampered & typical Singaporeans to gracious & lovely Thais'. SATURDAY o3 JAN is a weekend! I thought I could do my homework but I was in the living room watching TV the whole day :/ & I went out with my family to Jalan Kayu to have our dinner. So called, we've been labelled as Regular Customers and Dad starting talking more to the waiter that never fails to serve our orders each time we went there. Went home after dinner, & waited for Dear to online. The heart of me is strong today, no regrets I'm blessed to say the old me Dead & Gone away. Dear & I didn't had a proper conversation for the past few days. Thus, I'm missing him truckloads and trying to avoid myself from picking a bone to fight. Afterall, it's New Year which means, a new journey together. I do not want a bad kickoff as part of 2oo9, mayne. However, despite facing some emotional stress that either one of us is facing, I tried to keep my cool. I'm sorry if I'm too straightforward, honey. But don't you think it's tiring to beat around the bush? Sigh. I hope Dear's okay because if you are, I will be as well (: Excuse me, but let's just have a tiny-winy pinch of yesterday in the morning on the first day of school during Assembly. I was glad to see Mdm You back as my Co-form though some of us find it suey & that I knew Mr Ravin would be our teacher for o9'. But one more news that struck the school with shock especially to 4-6 barely stripped us naked was, the principal will be taking the class as well. When I stepped into the class, everyone was looking at me with the 'Wah, jialat' face. I feel you, guys. I really do. Was told that Principal had been eyeing my class since last year due to fcuking poor academic results. Pft~ Okay, that's the news I was going to break. I'm still like sitting on the fence which to decide, having the Principal is an advantage or disadvantage. Advantage: We're in excellent hands, huh? Disadvatange: Academic, Attire & Attendance being monitored real close. & Extra lectures... Pft, should I care about all these in the first place. It left me with a big question mark. That's all for now. I'm missing Dear ): Love,ABJ & Oh, I've been travellin' on this road too long- Thursday, January 1, 2009 4:11 PM
Story Of The Year II
Here's the Story Of The Year 2008 :D January: -OBS Camp February: -Birthday, thus many many presents. Thanks everyone (: -Grandma's 2nd Year Death Anniversary March: -I can't remember what happend April: -I can't remember what happend May: -Sec 2 NE Camp June: -Didn't go for Holiday ): -Ain't a Holiday for me July: -Youth Day August: -NDP Bay Ambassadors -The Month I went home after midnight every Saturdays with peeps September: -Holy Month of Ramadan -Relationship issue arises -S K I P- October: -No more Children's Day ): -Grandpa's 4th Year Death Anniversary -Hari Raya -Passed all subjects with flying birds -.- November: -SJAB Camp -OCIP trip to Mae Chaem, Thailand December: -Langkawi trip with Family -Sec 3 Councilors Camp RESOLUTIONS FOR YEAR 2009 1. Save money, spend wisely (Economic Recession lehhhh) 2. Study smart, pay attention in class 3. Do well in N Levels + O Level Maths 4. Be more generous, give more demand less 5. Lend a helping hand to others 6. Prosperous relationships with family, friends, boyfriend 7. Reduce number of rivals/enemies 8. Not comment about anyone whom I see as typical minahs/mats 9. Be less avoidant, take initiatives 10. Be a good leader, as a form of high synergy of influencing peers 11. Do less Saikang jobs, let the boys 2 men handle 12. More RARA! :P 13. Hand in homework on time 14. Be a committed person in terms of learning & relationship 15. Spend more quality time with people I love Okay, I think that should be it at the moment. So... Happy New Year everyone! Love,ABJ |