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Friday, May 30, 2008 10:48 PM
If You're Not The One
IF YOU'RE NOT THE ONE Hmm. I felt so wrong here. The time we spent, I enjoyed it. I enjoyed your company. I enjoyed your talks and jokes. I enjoyed everything. Didn't really care about time when I was with you. But time froze for me to stop and think when you gave me one note that you really cared for me. I was stunned. I was shocked. I was happy. The most was that I felt guilty. Yes,guilty of what I did in the past. I admit I was stupid then. Maybe I was easily influenced by the outside world but I believed I'm not carrying that shit anymore. It destructs. I almost broke into tears but I well it up and it manage to be gone eventually. & At the moment of time, I realised that no one else but you really cared this life who had done alot of wrongdoings towards her lover. You said if you can forget those things for a moment,why not me? You made a point. Perhaps,I'll be able to move on since I am being proven that someone will always be by my side and hold me through thick and thing together. If I could just turn back time, I'd set things right. If I could just turn back time, I'd erase myself and start from scratch. You really did convince me and clear my doubts of you. Now I think it's my turn to do so. I'm sorry for what I've done in the past. * I've been replying late because this is meant for you,Muhsin B Razali. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all I'll never know whatthe future brings But I know you're here with me now We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?I f I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my I don’t know why you’re so far away But I know that this much is true We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with And I wish that you could be the one I die with And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with I hope I love you all my life Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today ‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right And though I can’t be with you tonight You know my heart is by your side Love,ABJ 7:08 PM
Dirty Little Secret
 Supposingly Friday's suppose to be a short day fer me but no. Hey,afterall,I'm glad I managed to spend them in a good way although it's rushing. There's SJAB training today but I came at later part of the training due to some fcuking food poison. The sotong I ate at Teh Tarik yesterday was not well cooked I guess. It's the same food poison feeling I had during the Sec 2 Camp with some others. I wonder if you (SL's) ever remembered you got food poisoning or something before we went to bed? I know one who has it like me ; Liyana. LMAOLMAOLMAO. I thank God it striked a few hours. But during the camp,the pain was even shorter maybe because we're too tired that we fell asleep real fast and forgot the pain. Gaaaaaaaaaa. Okay,then I'm suppose to meet Farah to get some things that I needed but ended up Roziman and his younger brother(?) passing it to me. Thanks aight (: Saw QiEn and his friend/brother? Like powerrrr ah you. I didn't know you wear skinnies. You even dyed your hair. Ass ah you,super cool man. I thought you're just like one kid wearing smart like how you wore during Renee's 10th birthday. Wonder if you still remember that dammit birthday party? LOL. I won the Musical Chair game. Yey Yey :D & I wonder if Renee still remembers she attending to my 8th birthday party. Pillowfighttttt ! PPG style :P Seriously,all those times were funny because my brother became Mojo Jojo. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA! Anyways,QiEn & his brother/friend alighted the same station as me so yeah talked about MYE & stuffs. After that,waited fer Dear. It's always the case. I'm the one who always had to wait :P But as fer after school dismissal time,it's the other way round. I guess that's fair? Kekeke - It was raining but it's still humid so went to bubble tea shop. Thanks fer the treat,hunney :D Strawberry milk tea~ Then off to Game shop for Dear to buy PS 2 game which his brother wanted. Kind of slacked under my block and then Dear & I went up to my house to keep the bubble tea (I can't finish it. I felt bloated,somehow. Haha) Went down again and we walked aimlessly. If there's such thing as creepy around my neighbourhood,I'd like to see them but apparently someone doesn't agree to my idea of exploring it *raises eyebrow* Ahaks. It started drizzling so walked back and sat under my block near the function hall. & Syafiqah,I caught you off guard at the lift. MUAHAHAHA! Right,we sat there fer like almost one hour staring at tress,and skies and everything. Talked more than usual and we looked like the best of friends sharing stories. Time flies by real fast so went home and planning fer another upcoming outing or something? :P Awwwwwww,I love today man. MUHSIN B RAZALI :D Who has to know? When we live such fragile lives It's the best way we survive I go around a time or two Just to 3 : *stares up at the grey sky* 2 : wah,bagus eh dulu kite fight2,now dah happy. 1 : - - - - - *smiles widely* (: Shadow Of The Day : Never judge a person by just his innocence. He the one could actually be the sweet romantically in the inside. Love,ABJ Thursday, May 29, 2008 3:01 PM
Soulmate
You're not easy to find Is it possible Mr. Loveable Is already in my life? Right in front of me Or maybe you're in disguise Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone Here we are again, circles never end How do I find the perfect fit There's enough for everyone Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone If there's a soulmate for everyone Most relationships seem so transitory They're all good but not the permanent one Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone If there's a soulmate for everyone Wednesday, May 28, 2008 8:36 PM
Never Too Late
Here's the best video I've watched so far (FV). Wednesday. Boohoo. I'm bored laaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Dear's out fer school fer Daniel Lim's lesson. Physics is much much much better than Chemistry. Agree? At least it's worth if going fer his lessons. It's well paid off compared to my Chemistry teacher *ehem* SS & English teacher will change because Adabayor will be a part time teacher. Sigh. We're just starting to enjoy the lessons we had with Adabayor but sad to say,good things has to come to an end. I hope Mr Seow comes back but I know he won't. *groans* Bored currently. Chatting to Dear about many many things. Dear can see the future =.= Love,ABJ Tuesday, May 27, 2008 9:32 PM
Tough Day
 Want Some? :P[Edited] Tuesday's like school fer majority. Damn. Woke up at 0730HRS,had my shower and off fer SJAB training. It was tough like dsdhsfuyh. Joint sore got worst. Pumpings~ Ended at around 1245HRS and I'm off fer Student Profiling. Thanks to BoonTah I was late. 'Eh you change so fast ah?*Pinch Cheeks* Crazyfella. During the student profiling,it was an ass because we're all dying to go home especially Jeremy,Alif & I. We haven't have our breakfast before the training. So all along,our stomachs were empty. We just drank mineral water and that's it. After profiling,Mr Chong came in and talk to us about NDP Bay Ambassador. I'll have to SMS him tomorrow to give him an answer because I knew Mum would go choochoo all the way. Dad's werking and I it's a little bit hard fer me to ask his consent. Blablabla,talk about some other issues and I was fidgetting and feeling restless because Dear's waiting fer like almost 2 hours with his constant messages coming in like 'Now? Are you finishing soon? Now? Means finishing soon eh? Now? ' . Sorry honey! :/ Then off fer home with Dear. Feeling sleepy and I had no energy to talk damn it. I'm so hungry okay. But I received a wake up call so therefore,sleeping was not my first priorty when I reached home. Seems weird but I tried going to sleep fer about 1hr before going to tuition anyway. I can't sleep. LOL. Maybe because I was too hungry to sleep so I went out to the kitchen and cooked Maggi. Currently having it now. Yum (: 5:02pm ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Having iJan during tuition sometimes was an ass. I'd tend to get distracted by her conversations and it means less work done. Damn it. But anyway,I don't blame her that much because all along we've been doing properties of Circles which its topic I hate the most in the Maths Syllabus A. & I'm not surprised we didn't even touch the O level TYS. We had no mood to do it because of time constraint. So yeah,while doing Maths (okay,I admit we copied alot of the answers at the back because it's quite easy so no pain got gain :P ) was busy messaging Dear. Weewoo? & Then iJan smirked at me I was like 'What? =.=' Can't my Dear message me? Ergh. She's really being such an annoyance sometimes but I think I got the hang of it. So yeah,Dear fetched me after tuition. Heeeeeeeee! Another Wake...up...call *smiles widely* Went home and watched Baby's Day Out with Mum. Sooooooo cute. It had a pair of eyes like Dear. Lovelyyyy- Okay,random. Currently chatting to sweetheart,gyeahs! :D Love,ABJ Monday, May 26, 2008 2:24 PM
I Caught Fire
Hello peoples :D Did I blog yesterday? - Oh well. Here comes the holiday. But when I come to think about it,I missed those times going to school. Good thing is,I'm free to wake up anytime I want. I'm bored to tears and currently not chatting to Dear. I don't know what's wrong but hopefully I get to take this feeling over me. Just listening to some music to so called release my anger deep inside which I don't know what caused that anger to be kept. YLIAL from SP was a \m/ song. But somehow listening to it all the time makes me angry. Feels as though someone I know is lying just to pass the time. I'm pissed everytime I hear the song easy to say (: 300 is on HBO right now. Should I go and watch it since nobody's entertaining me? & I cried yesterday while watching Ladder 49.GOD... Yes I can jollywell grab my pillow and drag them outside lying on the sofa and forget the world and that is if things are getting worst from here. Shall I escape from it,it's your problem. Damn it. I really have empty vessels. I'm talking crap. Just to keep this blog alive at least an entry should keep the ball rolling. Anyway,my plans during the June is to finish all my homework ASAP. That's the most important thing. Secondly, is to spend good time with family and Dear. Third,I don't know. LOL. IloveyouMBR.I'mgonnapullthisthroughandshowyouI'mstillrunningonhighforyou. Shadow Of The Day : I lose my place in your eyes. Love,ABJ Saturday, May 24, 2008 3:09 PM
Just So You Know
I hate Saturdays. I hate Saturdays. I hate Saturdays. I hate Saturdays! Somehow I miss the school kinda feeling. Like daily routine,wake up,shower,go to school,do duties,studying(?) etc. I'm bored and I'm fidgeting all over everytime I tried to do something useful at home. Dad's working so we can't go out ): Mum went to Geylang to get her stuffs before going Umrah in less than two weeks time and Bro & I were stuck at home facing the computer all day. But happy to say,Mum gave me something do to before she left ; which is cook Chicken Soup \m/ Dad asked me to do the laundry. Okay,I'm like taking a break right now after cooking. It's humid like crazy and how I wish the rainy season would come. Seriously, are you guys starting to feel the effects of global warming? Because I do. Dear went fer a checkup so he's not online. I'm boreddddddd to death. & It seems like there's no good movies fer me to watch today on TV. Damnnnnnnnnn. So much fer cable TV =.= I slept early yesterday and I don't know why. In addition,I don't know what's wrong with me. I felt like a kid. I started sleeping with the Pooh bear and I miss Dear like djsa;djasfh. Sigh. Dear's like my CRAZE stuff at the moment all of a sudden :P Okay yeah,& Thanks fer the Pooh,Jeremy. I owe you a gift now. Haha! Plans Fer The Day
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Shadow Of The Day : Take it down on the results,people. Take it down. Love,ABJ Friday, May 23, 2008 6:12 PM
Carpal Tunnel Of Love
Hello peeps. Glad that today's the last day of school. My apologies fer not updating my blog well these few days. I'm tired and everything's a rush. So these few days,nothing much happend. Had interclass,blablabla. & I'm glad that I managed to go home together with Dear a few times. Friday was a short day and I wasn't feeling that good because of my headache (although I might seem okay in school). 3 periods of English and we watched Ratatouille. It's a nice movie and I've always wanted to watch it. Then after recess, we had Physics. It's quite boring when Mr Lim teaches us and the class wasn't that supportive like how we were when Mrs Oh was around. Now that she's gone,no one's in the mood to study without her. Anyway,fer Maths period the class slacked and Mr Soh wasn't in a good mood. But hey,I got several praises from him like yesterday. Hurhur :P My headache got worst so I went back home and didn't go fer training. Went to the clinic alone,then went back home again and went to Vista Point to get my guitar back after that. Met Khairil on the way meeting Dear to go home. Sit down a while with Al Afiq & Ariffin. Then off fer home sweet home. Currently thinking about my grades on how to improve them. Sigh. It's really disheartening sometimes when I flipped through the report book. I got position 17/44 & Surprisingly not,Mr Soh only commented two sentences unlike my previous teacher - Mr Nasir. Here's what Mr Soh wrote : Aiin performs well in everything she undertakes.Like freaking short,right?! I was hoping for long chained comments,man. I was thinking I should improve real hard on English and Science this year because it's been a tough one. & POA too.
Carpal Tunnel Of Love Fer me myself,I'm thankful that I'm not on the rocky stage at the moment. & Ironically,I've controlled and watch what I say everytime I talked to Dear ; meaning to say I don't instigate that much as before. Really,things had went well fer us fer the past few weeks. I'm hoping this would last. Dear smiled more everytime I was with him. Seriously,God knows how contented I felt everytime you were around. I'm glad that Dear understands my condition too but I hope it's a sincere one,okeh :P Shadow Of The Day : No I can't ,spell it out fer you. I love you MBR (: Love,ABJ Thursday, May 22, 2008 9:09 PM
Results
Thurday's was sure to be a long extra 35 minutes fer 3-6. Finished at 3.50 today and waited fer Dear but was out of sight ): Had been getting bad headaches the past few days. Sigh. Maybe because I stayed under the Sun fer too long or something. Well,Sec 3's got their report books today and went throught the statistics together in the hall. Gee,badly done peeps :/ Blablabla,technical problem was corrupting the whole talk and everyone was like 'alamakkkkk oiiiii' The principal was really upset. No doubt about it. Mrs Kok went to our classes and some others. Like seriously,she read out the results slip one by one to the whole class. & NA did real badly. Really, WE DON'T CARE (: My results wasn't that bad. I passed everything. EMB3 18pts. Can move up to Sec 5 hopefully. Mum was still nagging deh. Like come onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn,not many people passed all the subjects. Sigh. But I lost to iJan by few percentage =.= Anyway,I felt bad fer my friends. When they get home,you know what they get. Sigh. Must chiong ah people =.= Shadow Of The Day : One more day to go. Love,ABJ . Wednesday, May 21, 2008 9:13 PM
Always Be My Baby
THE BEST EVENING OF MY LIFE,SO FAR :D It happend so fast. & I seem to miss that moment. I love you very much honey. I hope this is one step closer to prove that I'm loving you. Shadow Of The Day : Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close? Love,ABJ Tuesday, May 20, 2008 9:37 PM
Impress
Tuesday was like...I don't know ; dumbfounded. Ms Han didn't come today so Mr Tan,Teh (?) & Mr Roy relieved us fer the 3 periods. Like duh,Mr Roy's period was the most kekek one and I laughed till my diapraghm aches. HuanHuan was inactive today. So WangJu was the asshole fer the day. Woops! So after reccess,SL's went fer rehearsal which ended at around 1330. Means I didn't have any lessons at all after reccess which is good (: I had migraine and I wasn't in a good mood. Went home with Haizan but we grabbed some bubble tea @ Admiralty. Reached home and slept fer like 1hr30mins then I went to tuition with my 'Kau balik dari Sentosa ke ape; clothing'. On way my to tuition place, some bastard tryna' get fresh with me. Like FCUK you,crazyass. Okay,shan't talk about it. Makes me flare up somehow. Tuition was being crazy today somehow. Nobody paid attention and iJan and I can't stop playing with phone. We didn't get anywhere during the lesson today. Currently chatting to Dear. Ahaks,yes which means I shouldn't blog any further. Byebye . Shadow Of The Day : With the looks to impress,you think they can make it? Love,ABJ Monday, May 19, 2008 3:46 PM
Lust
Monday and it's a public holiday. Boredom strikes me. & Currently not in a good mood. Ergh. No good shows on TV. Dad's working. Housechores to be done. Maths worksheet needs to be filed. Gaaaaaaaaaa. Damn it. I feel so helpless right now. So I really lost my mood somehow =.= & Yes I injured my so called left 'middle finger' with the steel string while strumming. I can't do things properly and it's swollen. Damn it. Damn it. Damn it. ERGH,no mood to blog people. Soz. ABJ. Sunday, May 18, 2008 11:38 AM
Fever
Feels like an epidemic is on the loose. Everyone started to fall sick nowadays. Damn. I slept at 3am yesterday in the morning staring blankly up the ceiling on my bed. What's going in my mind,I don't really know. Woke up and my body was aching all over. I felt gibberish and sober. I thought I got a bed sore or something but I realized it's something more than that. Bro caught a really bad flu last night after he came back from library. & I think that I got his virus. My immune system must've been going down due to depriving of my meals I guess. Okay,yeah. Bro didn't go Ngaji today so I went there alone-feeling weak...& I went back home fasttt and took another shower because it's frigging hot. Cold water,precisely. As I showered,I felt like a million cold sterilised needles were poking through my skin and my scalp was numb. That was when I realised I caught a fever. Secondly,without realising my mucus was dripping slowly out of my nose. Third,I'm starting to lose my voice. My body felt chilly and I was perspiring all over. Oh God,& my back is aching one of a kind. Like I need a maseusse badly right now! I don't feel like resting myself on bed because it'll be hell much of a worse situation if I lay down there doing nothing. My muscles will eventually contract and I'll be a so called 'stick' on the bed. Okay,I shall not blog anymore. It's such a pain. I need you Dear ): Love,ABJ Saturday, May 17, 2008 9:18 PM
The Prince & Me
See,weekends are boring fer me. I had nothing to do after my nap. Somehow I felt so sleepy today so I slept. Tsk. Just finished blog hopping and I don't know what you're talking about because it could be some conspiracy among you. I don't wanna know,anyway. Good or bad,I had immobilised such thinkings on negativity. "I think that it does. I think that it speaks for the intimate settings. I think it speaks for the good times that you have. It speaks at times for the temptation that you may approach as a man who is in more of a stable situation, the decisions that you make and ramifications for making a bad decision. Then also ultimately, those major steps in your life, the ones that really matter." That's some Usher Raymond fer you. There's not much of a plan going on today because Dad's working so Mum planned to go out tomorrow as a family. I was hoping that we'd all go to Sakura IB because it's a pay once and eat without limit service. & I'm missing all those ice cream which we can scoop as many as we want. Umph,lipsmacking goo,man \m/ Mum didn't cook today and I was feeling hungry. That was the reason fer me to wake up during my nappie. Tsk. I felt that I'm on a ration and hunger strike crisis at home =.= With reason fer that, I had been so called depriving my meals but awkwardly,I didn't lose any weight which can be infuriating sometimes. BOOOOOO! Okay,I got agitated. Firstly,I'm bored and Dad's not home fer me to play ball games downstairs. Secondly,I'm hungry. But the good thing was Bro's not at home. Went out to do some project or something. YAY! :D & Oh yes, I wanna thank Dad who paid my recent phone bill which shot up to $75 =.= Bored today and I just finished watching The Prince & Me on Ch 58 while doing my housechores. You guys should catch it. It's nice. Currently chatting to Dear. With his 'bedeeeeeeek' non-stop. Feel like smacking him on the butt and pinch his cheeks hard or something :P Aight,I gotta run chatting to Dear. & Happy One Year Three Months,honey! :D I love you! Love,ABJ Friday, May 16, 2008 8:09 PM
TGIF
TGIF! It has been a long day.Gee.
Thursday, May 15, 2008 6:23 PM
Bid My Blood To Run
Heyyo peeps. Today's such a very long fcuking day & I'm tired. There's an assembly talk given by Dr William Tan. Really motivating and I enjoyed it especially the video. It's inspiring and touched the bed of the heart. So today in class,there's some changes in the timetable. Used up math period as MT to give out exam papers. Paper 1 : 43/60 Paper 2 : 46/60 Oral : 29/40 In addition,Paper 2 was given out and yerp I passed math. 80/120 I must beat Dear's last year result! >.< So yeah. Finally I made it through. As far as I know,I failed english and Chemistry. Zzz... Seriously,I felt that there's not much of a thing to say fer today because today's schedule was very confusing. But nevertheless,Isaac and skipped two periods of lesson today and we went fer lunch instead as there will be an interview with Mr Siva,Mrs Kok and another twosome teachers. Finished up the interview and went back ASAP. & I'm too tired to talk to anyone at home right now. Sigh. Training resumes tomorrow and it'll be a long day. Anyway,I've been feeling moody these few days although I may joke like one tuuuuuut in class. & I know that deep inside it's not alright but I don't seem to know what is it all about. Maybe I'm just tired or something. Especially in class,everything seems so rushing. Like today,Adabayor gave a last minute worksheet to me and the SL in my class who went fer camp last month. & She told me to finish it up by end of the day. Like WTF? I had to write a composition and letter writing. I thought of just doing one section with a carefree attitude but I realised it's not worth it because it's 60 marks which can be easily earned. Luckily,it was quite easy ; last year's MYE English paper 1 set by Mr Seow. Looking at it,Mr Seow gave me a sense of encouragement to do the writing well. Maths was the same thing. I had to rush 4 exercises which I owed fer since March ? So copied Liang Bing's work and used a fifty cent coin to contruct all the cirlcles -.- Despite the time constrain,I managed to finish everything by end of the day. Sigh. Whatever. I'm glad all these rushing things came to an end,I think. & Seems like whatever I do can't seem to go right these days. It's really affecting and heart worth not breaking. Honey,I'm sorry I can't satisfy you with my not so well-being all these while. I wanted to please you with what I have but I seem to make you more agitated. Seriously,I don't know what lies between us but I really want you. I know I'm such a horrible girlfriend who always make you unhappy. A guy like you is impossible to fine,that's why I swear I don't want to lose you. Shadow Of The Day : You always thought that I'm stronger. Love,ABJ Wednesday, May 14, 2008 3:40 PM
SOS
Hello peepsies (: Today was a short yet tiring day because we spent our energy laughing our butts off during the workshop. 3-6's lecturer fer the workshop was Andrea. First half an hour,we already felt the vibe and we're laughing like never before as a class. We're divided into two teams - Taupok & Black Dog. I was in Black Dog. FYI,we named our group like that because we're referring to someone. LMAO! Seriously,HuanHuan cranked like big time sh*t and we had this 'Yo Momma' competition. Cikgu Memy was at the back laughing like djsa;odju too so BD won BD won! :D Andrea was one jokerette & everybody loves her with the 'YEH BABEH' trademark. So we had alot of time and learnt few things like building rapport,communication and confidence. I learnt these things which really can help me. Now I know how to imply,hope so (: Somehow I feel like disturbing people after I learn all these. LOL XD We held this workshop in classrooms which were air-conditioned. Turned on the fan too so it's like frigging cold with the rain pouring outside. It's nice. Anyway,I did have fun fer the day but life makes it incomplete without seeing Dear. I mean,I only got to see Dear once or twice in school. Sigh. Went back home alone feeling chilly and hungry. Nothing to eat at home so Dad & I went downstairs to have lunch at Teh Tarik. It's like we finished our food in about 8minutes and we're done. Then went hom. It was super fast like 20minutes and we're already back home. Currently drinking my Teh O Ais. NICE (; Plans Fer The Day
Shadow Of The Day : Obama handsome meh? :/ P/s : This is an SOS. I need MBR badly. Groans- A strangled smile fell from your face
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 10:01 PM
Happy
Tuition was kinda fun today. Like among the 3,I was the jokerette of the class. I don't really know what's to funny about it but we laughed our ass off during lesson and giggling non-stop. I think the 'joke' was about me answering the question. Seriously,I can't remember maybe because I was too tired. Must ask iJan tomorrow. LOL. & Fer every student recommended to this tuition will get $10. Like wow. We work in a way somehow :/ Went back home and feeling hungry. Complained to Mum and Dad so we went to Fork & Spoon. Finally, my favourite food all time can be enjoyed - the spicy fishball noodle :D Then came along my Coffee + Raspberry ice cream & Green tea. Okay,shan't talk about it anymore because I might get hungry especially in this periodic schedule *ehem* Moments ago,I read Dear's blog. Now I knew why he's moody all day. Lack of sleep was one thing that Dear always hated. & Yerp,dear's just like a very cute baby (: I got home feeling a little bit energised hoping to coax Dear but in the end,his Dad is using the computer so I had no chance to do so ): I must admit I did sleep late last night even though I went offline early. At first,I went to the kitchen to find food and bring it inside the room to eat while reading my book but the clock reminded me that hawtie's on TV. So I rushed to the living room and watched Prison Break 3 all alone in the dark having my late dinner. Dad was working so usually I'll be the last man in the house to knock out. Mum & Bro always sleep early so Dad wasn't there accompany watch my show. 'Abit sad ar' After that went to back to sleep so I can wake up early to meet honey at bus stop the following day. Wanna know something? I'm still not getting over my English MYE. I failed fer the first time. Ergh. SHI PAI SHI PAI - Now I know which areas to focus during the holidays and I promise to chiong. Love,ABJ 4:10 PM
Collide
Hello people. Today's such a longgggggggg day. Went to school with Dear (with Dan + Zhi Peng?) . Yerp, luckily I brought my PE shirt along as there's NAPFA today and I wore shorts everyday to school so no big deal . HAHAH! I was damn nervous fer the 5 items and my stomach was turning and churning all the juices secreted by my pancreas. Oh gosh. So I got the highest fer standing broad jump in my class for girls. & Mr Ravin started calling me Madam 200 =.= Next stop,sit and reach. Very pathetic lah (: Inclined pull up was somehow surprising... Shuttle Run was an ass. Heee. 3-6 was steady whereas 3-7 girls were like screaming their butts of cheering and motivating. & We're all like =.= Last stop was sit ups. Below are the results and I managed to get about a total of 22<>
So there's no POA which I thank God but I brought the file. Damn. Had 3 periods of Adabayor but 1 period exchanged with Mr Ben because Adabayor need to settle things with 3-7. & Yerp,Mr Ben did say that he set the paper at O level standard =.= Ironically,3-6 was feeling so dumbfounded when Mr Ben came in actually. Mr Ben joked Mr Ben : If we say chinese people in Singapore are called Chinese-Singaporean. What are China people called? Class : *Silence* Mr Ben : We call them Chinaerean laaaah! Class : =.= Mr Ben : You all slow laaaah! Class : -___________________________________________-'' & That was after Mr Ben declared that he set the O level standard. So everyone was unhappy when they came to know about it. I'm so happy I scored at least a distinction. Physics :D that's 37/50. & 18 of us were suppose to be invited to MRS & MR OH'S wedding this June but Mr Lim said only people who got 90 & above upon hundred will go if not Mrs Oh will go pokkai. So everyone was like fcuking noisy saying how much effort and time they had put in just to get dstinction. WTF. I studied then no wedding invitation and the wedding thingy is our reward? =.= Okay ah,so maths 1 I passed. 44/60. I'm confident I can pass Maths this time (: I'm tired so currently resting fer later's tuition at 5.30 & Homework not done. Gong Xi Gong Xi. When I reached there,I'm so dead,NOT. 'Cause exams are over like gimme a break! Freaking sleepy right now. Waiting fer MBR to online. Like where are you honey? IMY. Love,ABJ Monday, May 12, 2008 2:48 PM
Sophisticate Archiology
Heyya people. I've gotten back some of our exam results and mostly I didn't scored quite well but I did passed so far.
Seriously,English paper sucks. The Paper 2 Mr Ben setted it. & Really,I can bet you even The Sec 4s won't be able to do well. Well,all I can say is the best English paper setter will be Mr Razif. & If people can't complete his paper well,I'm speechless. Kayeh didn't have time to do the summary writing. Imagine he repeating all these musn't face that much of a problem but he did. Now think what about the rest? =.= So fer the first time ever in my education life, I FAILED ENGLISH with a 49 =.= Obviously,not including File and classwork. K,I'm pissed with Mr Ben. You tell me what EBOLA DISEASE?! WHY TALK ABOUT GORILLAS WHEN YOU CAN TALK OTHER BULLCRAPS ?! & The second passage sucks even more. WHAT BLOODY INVENTION DID SOME GAY MADE TO KILL CANCER USING ULTRAVIOLET RAY?! Bullshit. Geography was okay and I did tell you i didn't finish LORMS so I got an L3/3 =.= Actually all my answers were correct just that I didn't elaborate further. Seriously,no crosses in my paper. & Mr Khen said someone in Sec 4 Acad scored 50/50 and I must've thought to myself confirm Hafeez =.= Social studies was an ass to everyone. Only 14 people passed the paper. & I got a bloody 27 =.= I think...my Humanities = BOCHAP. POA was the second ass paper. Many didn't do well except fer Hui Zhu who got 65/70. I got a 37. Stupid. I lose marks because I didn't finish my TPL. I didn't know I had to record down profit loss and all. Damn it =.= I'm just relying on my class tests now. & My POA file is well organized and I expect a good grade to be given. At least a B =.= Chemistry. I think I did make improvements. Yes,just lost some marks because of my ionic bonding. Ass. Ergh. Now I'm depending on my Physics since Mr Lim said our class has more dintinctions compared to 3-7. Well,3-6 loves Physics more than Chemistry. So byebye (: I'm bloody pissed. I know it's partly my mistake fer not putting in full focus but some of the paper the teachers set was too cheem. Duh. But anyway,Mum can't say that much because even my class can't do well. & What even makes me more pissed is with someone who got a high score fer Geography. Like so what? Do you even have to laugh when somebody is clarifying her mistakes? Biatch. & Moreover, you got the question correct,you pretended you got it all wrong. What are you trying to say? We bodoh? Let's see Imma get you back during MT class. Ergh. Shadow Of The Day : Time to leave all past times behind. P/s : I'm looking forward fer upcoming outings at Fort Canning club w/ Bev,Jeremy & Canning + facils. Hate,ABJ Sunday, May 11, 2008 6:58 PM
To All The Ladies Around The World
Today's Sunday wasn't that bad afterall. Went out fer weddings some sort of ah. Jemputan- yeah? LOL. Didn't went online fer long since Friday eversince something happend. Yerp :/ Okay so,went out in the afternoon fer the first jemputan followed by my cousin's wedding. But I didn't attend the second one so Bro & I went up to Wak's house while Mum & Dad went over to the other block to attend it. Fer 3 hours at Waks',didn't do anything except eat eat eat. Seriously,they're the best and I got another 25 bucks today & bro another 25 (: That's enough to buy my guitar bag already. Nyehah! Cuzzy Ayid was there who just came back from Fairprice with his NS hairstyle. Like whoa,super handsome. Rafiq pun kalah laaaah. Hahaha! & Then figured out some guitar chords together and went back home after an hour or so playing. Badada badada badada badada bababadada~ Now I'm back home without Mum and Dad. Both of them were finding some stuff fer their Umrah trip this coming June and I don't wanna follow because I felt so tired and sleepy. & Ngaji was bad today. Baris berterabuh. I only had 4 hours of sleep =.= So much fer thinking? Aight,this is it. Tomorrow school will be as per normal. & I forgot is it either Day 1 or Day 6 ? :/ To all mothers in the world, A HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! :D Ladies,you deserve nothing but the best. & Especially to dearest Mummy and Mum-in-Law :P And we both go down together Love,ABJ. P/s : I need MBR :( 2:34 AM
Stress Stress!
Heyya peeps :/ It's like 1.48am in the morning and I'm still up. I bet you guys are sleeping soundly. Watched TV with Dad until midnight and we're the last one to leave the living room as usual. Dad went in and knocked down. Seems like I am always the winner fer sleeping late at night. I tried putting myself back to sleep. I felt tired but I felt that there's a million over things that's going throught my brain. So,here I am, alone in the dark blogging -.- Since I can't sleep,I started decryting my conversations with Dear and read every bit of it. It sure does make me sleepy but I know I won't be able to knock it down. Sigh. Like seriously,what am I actually facing? But afterall,I'm glad I eased off with everything I had with me during the great depression. Mum sat down next to me while I was watching TV alone (Emo per?) *Conversation will be translated to English (; Ah,just nice. It's 2.00am after completing the dialogue. Zzz. Yerp,I really felt sorry fer myself somehow. It's like pathetic. I don't know what I'm stressing all about. Maybe I'm on the verge or breaking down with the people I relate probably because we don't have the same thinking and I don't understand them? Okay,I think I blame myself too much fer it. Nyehah. Time update.2:18 right now. I think I wanna sleep at 4. & Ngaji starts at 9am. It's alright to have a short sleep because I got used to it sleeping 3 hours especially early last month. Those moments are still fresh in my head. All of us were like physically pushed till late morning -.- Right,I'm lazy to blog right now so I guess I'll be playing CS since majority of my clan will be on :D Love,ABJ Saturday, May 10, 2008 6:10 PM
"Why So Serious?"
Heyyya peesies :/ & This isn't because of osteoporosis,I tell you =.= 1:35 PM
Emergency
INJURED MY LEFT ELBOW. neenooneenooneenoo- Won't be online today. Chowsinchii! Love,ABJ Let's See How Far We've Come : 365 + 60+ 21 = 446 :D Friday, May 9, 2008 5:37 PM
If I Talk To God
 If I Talked To God Heyya peesies :D 'School' fer some of us wasn't that bad. It's meaningful. I can see that everyone's changing fer the better. Woke up at 0730hrs and get ready fer school. I was alone so can sing the toilet while showering (k,merepek). Reveilled myself went online fer a while and gave dear some offline messages before I go. So reached school quite early but Rema did arrive first. Weird,I saw her at the interchange when I was in the bus. & She reached the school first without boarding the same bus as me? LOL,she had probably boarded 962,duh. Okay so,went to SLC room and there's 3 mat delivery from Mac Donald's. LMAO,imagine,delivery man took a taxi to deliver instead of their scooters? Hahah! & There was it,packs of fresh McMuffins & Ms Nadia was like 'waaaa Mc Donald's seh'. Mr Lim sponsored the 16 of us who volunteered to become the valets,usherers and receptionists fer today's Annual North Zone meetings. & Mr Lim spent about 104 bucks just fer the 16 of us as an appreciation fer coming to school and sacrificing our plans that were made fer outings etc. I'm free so I come ah. The best part was we didn't get small sized Iced Milo. But large ones. Power right?! So we had a hearty breakfast,had an attire check and off to our respective duties. So there's this particular cleaner wanna get funny with some of us. MOTHERFUCKERASSHOLEKNNCCB. Those who kena were traumatised but I'm glad actions were taken instantaneously. Power ah. Bev,Haizan & I became the receptionist at Level 3. No time to slack and we had to greet 'Good morning sir/maam' blablabla. We had a hard time distributing their booklets as they were not in alphabetical order and we got backaches with exception fer Bev but she got her right arm aching pointing direction. LOL! Had conference with all the other SL's as attendance is mandatory. It was fun lah and that was when I can see everyone started to realise their own mistakes and hearts began to change. The main question given to us was : 'What is the purpose of your life?' Like seriously,I don't know how to answer. I don't know why am I living :/ Then Mr Siva talked to us about the 'Application form as a human being on earth' . It's like he's talking crap about us talking and making deals with God before we were on Earth. It's hellalot funny but he made one major sector. && We SL's are planning to raise our 10th year anniversary fund raising by washing people cars. Kerek right? But it's good ah,'cause we'll be getting tips. Carwash~Carwash~ Ahaks :P So yeah,Mr Siva went through about our schedule fer Sec 2 Juniors thingy and our interview(OMGah nye case) and blablabla. So I'm gonna be busy between 12May up to the 27May. There'll be upcoming events blablabla including Myanmar Cyclone incident. - So went home alone and luckily the bus wasn't crowded with men on their way to the mosque because it's quite a late afternoon I guess. Lalala- chatted to Dear fer a while and he's off to play soccer. Shadow Of The Day : I may be traumatised, but I'm still standing tall. Things I learnt today
And you can feel me when you fall I changed my heart into something new already (: & I'm proud to be different. Love,ABJ Thursday, May 8, 2008 1:12 PM
One Trust III
Okay yeah,today no school. To all Sec 4 POAians, you finished your Paper 2 second leg. Very well,you can join the crib and enjoyyyy :D Tomorrow-SCHOOL fer me and other SC's . Not so bad ahhhhh. Maybe I'm meeting Ajib at the court. Play ball to de-stress myself. I don't care if I'm gonna get hurt (: Seriously,who cares about me anyway? So yes, Dear started hanging out at RC more frequently,I guess =.= Such a lonely day~ Nevermind,this world is so cruel. Nothing much to say you know. Maybe I'm going out too since there's no one to chat with. Rather go spend some father-daughter time outdoor. *Does it tells us what really happend? Wait ,there's more in the coming posts. Four months from February I know somehow I will, get over you My father, he told me, 'Watch out the girl, she likes to bend the truth, sometimes' Your eyes they lie to me, tonight One love, don't you chase it One life, don't you waste it One trust, one trust You knew just how to break it Your mood swings, they adore me My friends are watching me, die over you Somebody, please save me I've taken all I can from your abuse, this time Your eyes they lie to me tonight Wednesday, May 7, 2008 1:58 PM
This Is The Sound
 Learning How To Stand On MY OWN.Heyya peesies. I thank God that MYE is offically over. Maths Paper 2 was easier than we expected. Well,50-50 to get a pass. I did fine and left out a few questions in the first place but I managed to solve them if not I wasted 4 marks fer not answering it. Okay yeah,one sucky part,my lead broke into pieces because I was like frustrated with the graph so I pointed to Mdm Rabia at Changfoo to get a lead fer me. God,he saved my life. Thanks Changfoooooooooooooo! Super 17 ah you! :D Physics was effing easy. But not to sound over-confident,I just wanna say that the paper was alright. No questions stuck. It's like 'Which of the following is the most poor conductor of heat?' Air ah? HAHAHAHA! Okay yeah,so everyone finished in 30minutes and just a person who knocked the paper down last. The remaining 45 minutes was fer us to SLEEEEEP since we didn't get to fer the past few examinations because Mr Soh was invigilitating. Okay so,the whole class was like bullying this freaky teacher blablabla. 'SO SAD AR'. Chao Jun power ahhhhhhhhhhh. He looks like one kid even though he's already 16. Even HuanHuan. The best clowns in the class ever. There'll be a meeting this Friday and attendance is mandatory =.= Fill me up,CJ. I'll be doing the duty. With breakfast sponsored by Mr Lim. Weee~ & Yerp,can't wait fer school to close. Hopefully Mum and Dad will be able to attend my investiture too :/ dude, thanks fer keeping those devices fer me. Anyway,here's half of it fer you. TLG made this up. I let you in, just a little too close
Love,ABJ Tuesday, May 6, 2008 9:49 PM
Cyclone
 Uncle Burn & Dad At The Back-BFF (: Mum : Aiin,pray hard your Dad don't have to go It really depresses me especially when I came back from tuition feeling lethargic. & It's not the first time Dad had to go fer all these disasters. I tend to get used to it because Dad always goes to Indonesia to help out etc. and the cases wasn't so bad as it was only earthquakes. Now Myanmar. It's a storm. Tell me how bloody dangerous can that be? Already in Singapore alone,it scares my ass off when the nicoll highway collapsed. I'm just hoping he won't go. Whether Dad's going or not,it all depends on tomorrow morning. Dad had already packed his uniforms and rations in his bachpack getting ready on standby. & A call is all I wanted to get tomorrow after exams. If he doesn't come back tomorrow,means today was the last time I will see him fer the few weeks. & If anything happens,I love you very much Dad. & I'll miss you. & Uncle Burn too. Love ABJ I need comfort. Tomorrow's Paper 2, Ass! 3:14 PM
Back Where We Belong
You kiss me, kill me, push me, pull me, leave me wanting more Crank Yankers! : I felt that way when I got a crush on Dear :P 11:43 AM
Death Note
 My Chemistry Death Note =.=Heyya peepsies! As you know,tomorrow will be the last day of exams fer majority of us! :D I'm glad Chemistry paper was okayyy but there's some careless mistakes I made,as always =.= But overall,I'm thankful that it wasn't an ass and this paper was actually easier than those class tests. iJan's phone rang during the exam but she didn't bring it in. & Everything was staring blankly at one another. Even 3-7 heard the phone ringing and it doesn't rang once but thrice followed by someone else's phone. Yerp,at the point of time two phones rang every here and there. Mr Soh checked some of the bags and iJan was the unlucky one. Hopefully iJan's okay or something but she's like kinda pissed when I asked whether she's alright. Hello,I don't ask about the phone (like i freaking care) but I asked about yourself whether you're doing fine or not. What's there to show me a fcuked up face ? =.= Okay yeah so,today there's only one paper fer us so went back home early (: Went to Mac's with Sharifah to get some breakfast,accompanied her buy newspaper and top her EZ link then off fer home! && FYI,I forgot to bring my notes I summarised last night !!! So in the morning reached school at 6.45am to summarise everything that's on the notebook. Crazy. Tomorrow will be Physics and Math 2. Hopefully it'll be easy as well. My tuition homework was done halfway,wonder if Haizan able to do it since she needed my tutoring fer those sums. Yesterday night was such a busy schedule right after I woke up from nappie. I studied Chemistry after washing up my face etc. Then my phone rang. iJan was asking fer every single notes. Aku free nampak? =.= & She didn't called once but more than thrice. Zzz. Later that night,she called again I left it not answered leaving 3 missed calls fer the day. I think I'm gonna burn the midnight oil if I were to pick up her phone calls after 9pm. So yeah,managed to watch Prison Break III while having my late late late super late dinner since I'm busy studying in the evening- Chatted with Dear before that while studying ; & Jesse's song kept ringing in my head: DON'T STRESS DON'T STRESS DON'T STRESS :/ I'm sorry Dear. Maybe I lost interest in flirting with the computer because I was too focused on my Chem. But in the end,everything went smoothly thanks to Dear. He motivates me :D I love you MBR!!! The one who's so so fly- (: Okay aight,I think I've blogged too much about this. & Yes,it's gonna rain (: Plans Fer The Day
Love,ABJ |
