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Friday, May 30, 2008 10:48 PM

If You're Not The One

IF YOU'RE NOT THE ONE

Hmm. I felt so wrong here.
The time we spent, I enjoyed it. I enjoyed your company. I enjoyed your talks and jokes. I enjoyed everything.
Didn't really care about time when I was with you.
But time froze for me to stop and think when you gave me one note that you really cared for me.
I was stunned. I was shocked. I was happy. The most was that I felt guilty.
Yes,guilty of what I did in the past. I admit I was stupid then. Maybe I was easily influenced by the outside world but I believed I'm not carrying that shit anymore.
It destructs. I almost broke into tears but I well it up and it manage to be gone eventually.
& At the moment of time, I realised that no one else but you really cared this life who had done alot of wrongdoings towards her lover.
You said if you can forget those things for a moment,why not me? You made a point. Perhaps,I'll be able to move on since I am being proven that someone will always be by my side and hold me through thick and thing together.
If I could just turn back time, I'd set things right. If I could just turn back time, I'd erase myself and start from scratch.
You really did convince me and clear my doubts of you.
Now I think it's my turn to do so.
I'm sorry for what I've done in the past.
* I've been replying late because this is meant for you,Muhsin B Razali.
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If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?I

f I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my ~~wife~~?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

Love,ABJ