Hi, it's been a very long time since I posted something here in this blog! :D

Life's fine. Came back to Blogger's arms maybe because I missed by old blog. I am happy I didn't delete it, though. Although they say the memories rot. -.-

Currently in the midst of the year busy preparing for 'O' Levels. The recent exam I managed to clear was Preliminary 1. Hopefully I get twenty points and below, then I'll slowly make my way to the point that I've always aimed for.

Although life's slightly abit lonely these days and for the fact that I didn't contact him much, I know that feeling of love is still lingering around.

Friends? Did lose one or two. But that's the past. We may not contact or talk to one another or even see each other eye to eye, I've long buried the hatchet. And once again, you're like a stronger whom I got to know in my previous life.

Hardly have the time to blog, guess I'll update this blog when I have the time and mood to do so. See you around, everyone!




Love, ABJ.

It has been some time since I last blogged. Well, some days were fine. Some days just weren't. It's normal but I hate to face it. Sometimes I just left that problem unsolved & move on. Sometimes I fight for it like there's no tomorrow. In fact, the word tomorrow is commonly used for losers like us. Nevertheless, I am trying hard to be out of this plentiful of lazy species who are aimlessly crawling on the surface of Earth.

I shall skip parts my happy moments because I don't have to rant so I'll vent and vomit everything that I've bottled up over the past few weeks. Well, I'm having problems regarding family matters. Maybe not my family but myself. I find that I can easily get things (the expensive items) easily but not something so simple like a homecooked food.

Why am I saying things like this?

For instance, I got my Blackberry phone. Happiness. But when it comes to mum cooking at home when I'm at the peak of yearning for homecooked meals, it was so hard for it to happen. Out of five, it happens only ONCE.

Then comes things in school; I tend to set aside all the problems I had at home. Surprisingly, all the comments teachers wrote in progress cards were all thing like I'm a cheerful person who respects people around me yadayadayada. I Think its bullshit but boy, I do sure hide my emotions well.

I'm just waiting to say what I have to say especially to my family.

Brother's getting out of hand. Mum always reprimand me if I didn't help her tend to her Facebook games which I think she's going crazy over something so useless that won't even help her in the future let alone afterlife. Dad's always being a relaxed person but I know he too, had alot of things to say. Just that he's being too nice of a human being.

I just got no one to talk to. & Whenever I'm stressed about a particular issue with my friends, I tend to signal the wrong impression. & Hence, people labelled me as someone who's had alter-ego attitude problem and love being a pesimistic person. Yeah, it comforts your bloody mouth to say all those nice things but try being in my shoes who's got no one to talk to eversince my loved ones depart for the afterlife.
They're my only talking companion & I've lost that. Well, just fucking get them back from the dead for me & you guys can jolly well fuck yourself with what you want to say about me.

So much for having close friends, family & a boyfriend. Sometimes I felt that no one really wants to hear what my problems are. They're like clouds which comes & go when they're done playing their roles as friends. I think that's bullshit people.

& Just to let you know, I never did appreciate someone so much before in my life. I don't think I need it anymore. Let myself just be this way. Afterall, everyone's pretending that they're giving a shit about it.



Chao outside, motherfuckers.

Tired & not in the best of mood.

Today's the start of the eighth week of school. Since it's Monday & it's the even week of the school timetable, I dread going to school -.-
School's great just now. I enjoyed it although I was sleepy. But after PE, I'm glad that I don't actually felt that sleepy like I usually do.

POA was not that boring since my mood was slightly lifted up since I did unexpectedly well. Not that well but I guess getting twenty out of thirty is something to feel happy abou since I never liked POA -.-
Paid attention & didn't talk much to Nazme & Anwar since I was sort of pissed at Anwar for a certain reason. Haha. But it's all fine now.

PE was boring since we did standing broad jump which was too easy for me to meet the passing mark, as told by Mr Poh. Haha. Yes, I do sound braggy. Afterall, it's something what most girls can't do :P
Proceeded to the field & played hockey which was super boring & got me a blister on my index finger. Pft.

Today's my lesson with Mrs Raj. It was pretty exciting & I love the way she uses her vocabulary. For most of us, it's common to beautify your words in the compositions you write but unlike Mrs Raj, she makes sure her speech is also made beautiful. I hope to pick up some of the language skills by using vocabulary when I'm talking. Haha!

MT was fine. I did my work & submitted on time. I felt like I'm being such a responsible & good student. Hope to get a better grade for my composition which I spent hours doing the research.

A.tan was unwell today so we didn't have offcial lessons. However, we're still given homework to do which sucks. Thankfully, Mdm Timah came in & started giving us informations about transnational terrorism which was very interesting. Can you believe it even my own SS teacher doesn't do that even though she's weak at that topic? I took that as an excuse because even if she doesn't like it, it's for the sake of her students. So I was expecting her to do a mini reasearch & tell us the fundamentals of the topic to get us going -,-

Even teachers nowadays create excuses, & What? Blame in on the students? But really, I'm beginning to see teachers in school starting to slack like big f. I'm not making the situation out of a mockery but one of the classes are already experiencing it, & mind you they're graduating FOR REAL this year -.-

Maths was fine, shan't elaborate. Too tired & lost my eagerness to share my day.



Chao outside, motherfucka.